please help me find forgivness for my mother

[sc John]

My late mother was an abusive drug addicted alcoholic, who was very cruel to my sister, brothers and me. I have forgiven everyone that has ever in my life mistreated me, but somehow, I just can not forgive my mother. She died a few years back, and I could not even shed a tear. I myself am getting on in years, and am fearful that I will not be allowed into GOD's kingdom with all this hatred in my heart. I have prayed about this, and GOD keeps putting in my heart that HE has already given me the capacity to forgive her. If this is so, how could I possibly be carrying all this hatred around with me?????

 

[Intercessor]

Father, I ask you would show John the massive debt he has been forgiven, then help him forgive his mom for the rest of his life. I struggled with this John, I'll send you a private message. Help us Father, in Jesus' Name.

 

[Gina]

John,

I pray you would allow the Holy Spirit to minister to to you and show you how to forgive your mother. I think we all struggle at times with this and it is very difficult but the Holy Spirit will help you. If you can, go to your "secret place", where only you and the Holy Spirit are, and let Him bring you to peace for this situation. We will be praying for you and standing in the gap for you. IJN Amen