Oh, beloved one, we hear the deep anguish in your cry, and our hearts break with yours as we lift you before the Father in the mighty name of Jesus. Your pain is raw, your suffering long, and your questions are the same that many saints before you have wrestled with in their darkest hours. You are not alone in this, and though it may feel as though heaven is silent, we assure you—God *has not* forsaken you. The enemy seeks to deceive you into believing that your suffering is proof of abandonment, but Scripture declares otherwise. The Lord is near to the brokenhearted and saves those who are crushed in spirit (Psalm 34:18). He collects your tears in His bottle (Psalm 56:8), and He sees every wound inflicted upon you, whether by the hands of others or the brokenness of this fallen world.
You have cried out, *"Why do You keep me sick and injured in this abusive, idolatrous place?"* We do not know the full answer to why God allows suffering in this life, but we know this: His heart is good, His purposes are redemptive, and His timing is perfect. Consider Joseph, who was sold into slavery, falsely accused, and imprisoned—yet God was with him (Genesis 39:21). Consider Job, who lost everything and was covered in sores, yet the Lord restored him doubly after his faith was tested (Job 42:10). Consider even our Lord Jesus, who endured the cross, despising its shame, for the joy set before Him (Hebrews 12:2). Your suffering is not in vain. The Lord is refining you, drawing you closer to Himself, and preparing you for a breakthrough that will bring Him glory. He does not delight in your pain, but He will use it to shape you into the image of Christ (Romans 8:29) if you cling to Him.
You asked, *"Do You love that I’m getting abused? Do You not want me?"* Listen closely, child of God: **The Father loves you with an everlasting love** (Jeremiah 31:3). His love is not based on your performance, your circumstances, or even your faith in the moment—it is based on His unchanging nature. *"For I am persuaded, that neither death, nor life, nor angels, nor principalities, nor things present, nor things to come, nor powers, nor height, nor depth, nor any other created thing, will be able to separate us from God’s love, which is in Christ Jesus our Lord"* (Romans 8:38-39). The abuse you have endured is *not* His will for you, but in His sovereignty, He can turn even the evil intended against you for good (Genesis 50:20). He wants you—so much so that He sent His Son to die for you while you were still a sinner (Romans 5:8). You are *precious* to Him.
You also asked, *"Do You want me to go back to idolatry?"* **Absolutely not.** The Lord detests idolatry because it is spiritual adultery (Ezekiel 6:9), and He jealously longs for your whole heart (Exodus 20:3-5). You said, *"I know that I always hurt You,"* and we want to gently remind you: repentance is the pathway back to His arms. If there are areas of your life where you have turned to idols—whether literal idols, addictions, relationships, or even bitterness toward God—He is calling you to surrender them *now*. *"If we confess our sins, He is faithful and righteous to forgive us the sins, and to cleanse us from all unrighteousness"* (1 John 1:9). Do not let the enemy tempt you to return to bondage. The Lord is your deliverer, and He is able to break every chain.
You declared, *"I believe in Your Word,"* and this is your anchor. Faith is not the absence of doubt or pain—it is the choice to trust God *in spite of* them. You are standing on the promises of God, and He *will* fulfill His Word in your life. *"Let us hold fast the confession of our hope without wavering; for He who promised is faithful"* (Hebrews 10:23). Your breakthrough *is* coming. It may not look like what you expect, and it may not come in the timing you desire, but the Lord is working behind the scenes on your behalf. *"For the vision is yet for the appointed time, and it hurries toward the end, and won’t prove false. Though it takes time, wait for it; because it will surely come. It won’t delay"* (Habakkuk 2:3).
We must also address this: you said, *"It feels like You don’t care or love 'me' specifically."* This is a lie from the pit of hell. The devil wants you to believe you are forgotten, but the truth is, you are *engraved on the palms of His hands* (Isaiah 49:16). Jesus left the ninety-nine to pursue *you*, the one (Luke 15:4). You are not a number to Him—you are His beloved child, and He is intricately involved in every detail of your life. *"Even the hairs on your head are all numbered"* (Matthew 10:30). If He cares for the sparrows, how much more does He care for you?
Finally, you cried, *"I can’t do anymore anything. Fetch me out."* Oh, precious one, we understand the exhaustion, the desperation, the feeling of being at the end of yourself. But this is *exactly* where God wants you—where you stop striving and let *Him* fight for you. *"The Lord will fight for you, and you shall be still"* (Exodus 14:14). You don’t have to muster up strength; you only need to surrender. He is your refuge, your strong tower, and your deliverer (Psalm 91). He *will* fetch you out in His perfect time. Until then, He is with you in the fire, just as He was with Shadrach, Meshach, and Abednego (Daniel 3:25).
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**Let us pray together:**
Heavenly Father, we come before You in the mighty and matchless name of Jesus, lifting up Your beloved child who is crying out to You in deep distress. Lord, You see the wounds—physical, emotional, and spiritual—that have been inflicted upon them. You hear the cries that no human ear has heard. You collect every tear, and You are not deaf to their pleas. Father, we ask that You *move* on their behalf. Break the chains of abuse, oppression, and idolatry that have sought to destroy them. Lord, if there has been any turning away from You, any bitterness, any sin—cleanse them now by the blood of Jesus. Restore unto them the joy of Your salvation and uphold them with a willing spirit (Psalm 51:12).
Father, we rebuke the spirit of despair, hopelessness, and abandonment that has sought to blind them to Your love. Holy Spirit, flood their heart with the revelation of how deeply they are loved by You. Remind them that they are *chosen*, *adopted*, and *sealed* by You (Ephesians 1:4-5, 13). Lord, if they have been in an idolatrous place, physically or spiritually, we ask that You *supernaturally* remove them and place them in a position of safety and restoration. Provide for their every need—healing for their body, peace for their mind, and strength for their spirit.
We declare Your promises over them: *"The Lord is my shepherd: I shall lack nothing. He makes me lie down in green pastures. He leads me beside still waters. He renews my soul. He guides me in the paths of righteousness for His name’s sake. Even though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil, for You are with me. Your rod and Your staff, they comfort me. You prepare a table before me in the presence of my enemies. You anoint my head with oil. My cup runs over. Surely goodness and loving kindness shall follow me all the days of my life, and I will dwell in the Lord’s house forever"* (Psalm 23). Father, let them *experience* this truth in a tangible way.
Lord, we ask for their *breakthrough*—not just spiritually, but *physically*. If they are sick, we pray for divine healing by the stripes of Jesus (1 Peter 2:24). If they are trapped in abuse, we pray for supernatural deliverance and protection. Place godly people in their path to help them, provide for them, and walk with them through this season. Father, let them *see* Your hand moving in their life so clearly that all doubt is erased. Let them testify of Your faithfulness.
And Lord, if they have felt forgotten, remind them of Your words to Israel: *"Can a mother forget her nursing child? Can she not have compassion on the son of her womb? Yes, these may forget, yet I will not forget you! See, I have engraved you on the palms of My hands"* (Isaiah 49:15-16). Father, let them *feel* Your love in a way they never have before. Break the lies of the enemy and replace them with Your truth.
We thank You, Lord, that You are working all things together for their good (Romans 8:28). We thank You that their story is not over—that You are writing a testimony of victory, redemption, and restoration. Give them the grace to hold on just a little longer. Strengthen them when they are weak. Be their hope when all seems hopeless.
In the mighty name of Jesus, we bind every spirit of abuse, oppression, sickness, and idolatry. We declare *freedom* over their life. We speak *healing* over their body. We proclaim *deliverance* from every stronghold. And we decree that they will *see the goodness of the Lord in the land of the living* (Psalm 27:13).
Father, we trust You. We thank You that You are moving, even when we cannot see it. We thank You that Your love for them is *specific*, *personal*, and *unshakable*. Let them know, beyond a shadow of a doubt, that You are for them, that You love them, and that You *will* rescue them.
We pray all of this in the powerful, matchless name of **Jesus Christ**, our Lord and Savior. Amen and amen.
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Beloved, we want to leave you with this encouragement: **Your pain has a purpose.** The Lord is not wasting a single tear you’ve cried. He is preparing you for something greater than you can imagine. In the meantime, *keep praying*. Keep declaring His Word over your life. Keep resisting the devil, and he *will* flee from you (James 4:7). Surround yourself with believers who can pray with you and support you. If you are in immediate danger, seek help from trusted Christians or authorities who can assist you.
You are *not* forgotten. You are *not* abandoned. You are *loved*, and your breakthrough *is coming*. Hold on to Jesus—He is holding on to you. *"The Lord himself goes before you and will be with you; He will never leave you nor forsake you. Do not be afraid; do not be discouraged"* (Deuteronomy 31:8).
We are standing with you in faith. Keep believing. Keep trusting. **Your Redeemer lives.**
Prayer Focus: God, Thank You for loving me. God, I ask You in Jesus’ name please bless me with everything that I stand in need of and everything You want me to have. 
