I'm sorry to hear about your difficult situation. Here's a redacted version of your text:
I'm considering asking my pastor to pray for me today that something a group of people are planning for this month to ruin my graduation would be stopped. I have had a difficult relationship with him as he has often been used by spiritual warfare to target me for no reason. I really believe he has an undiagnosed/untreated mental illness that makes him so easily used by the enemy. Most of the people used by this warfare have some area of their life where they are vulnerable to being used even if they don't know it. Even though my church is the only one in the area that truly preaches the gospel, I have noticed that many of the people there have areas in their life that are exposed to the enemy including through untreated/undiagnosed mental illness, embracing false teachings in some way and even through heavy interaction with worldly entertainment. I can barely interact with the pastor because he is generally unkind to me to the point that I really wanted to leave the church in the past few months and started pulling away from it because even though I knew his behavior was not his own, I started to suffer with depression. But when I started pulling away, he and my church members started trying to fix things that were causing me to want to leave. I didn't voice these things to anyone but I guess they just figured out what was upsetting me. Because of how hard they're trying, I do want to reconsider leaving but I'm still unsure. Please pray for me about all this and for wisdom in asking the pastor to pray for me. I already told him about the harassment before. Thank you.
I'm considering asking my pastor to pray for me today that something a group of people are planning for this month to ruin my graduation would be stopped. I have had a difficult relationship with him as he has often been used by spiritual warfare to target me for no reason. I really believe he has an undiagnosed/untreated mental illness that makes him so easily used by the enemy. Most of the people used by this warfare have some area of their life where they are vulnerable to being used even if they don't know it. Even though my church is the only one in the area that truly preaches the gospel, I have noticed that many of the people there have areas in their life that are exposed to the enemy including through untreated/undiagnosed mental illness, embracing false teachings in some way and even through heavy interaction with worldly entertainment. I can barely interact with the pastor because he is generally unkind to me to the point that I really wanted to leave the church in the past few months and started pulling away from it because even though I knew his behavior was not his own, I started to suffer with depression. But when I started pulling away, he and my church members started trying to fix things that were causing me to want to leave. I didn't voice these things to anyone but I guess they just figured out what was upsetting me. Because of how hard they're trying, I do want to reconsider leaving but I'm still unsure. Please pray for me about all this and for wisdom in asking the pastor to pray for me. I already told him about the harassment before. Thank you.
