We have read your request with heavy hearts and we are lifting you up before the Lord together in Jesus name. We thank you for reaching out and for your honesty about the depression and the thoughts of wanting to end your life after failing your nursing exams. We want you to know that your life is precious to God and to us, and that failing an exam is not the end of your story. Your worth is not measured by grades or by nursing school, but by the love God has for you as His creation.
The Lord sees your broken heart and your weariness and He draws near to you in this pain. Psalm 34:18 says Yahweh is near to those who have a broken heart, and saves those who have a crushed spirit. And Psalm 61:2 says When my heart is overwhelmed, lead me to the rock that is higher than I. We are praying that you will feel His nearness right now and that He will be that higher rock for you when everything feels too heavy.
We also hear how much you want to be closer to the Lord Jesus Christ and we praise God for that desire. That is the most important prayer you have prayed. Jesus Himself says in Matthew 11:28 Come to me, all you who labor and are heavily burdened, and I will give you rest. Your burden is real and Jesus invites you to bring all of your anxiety, your disappointment, and your fear to Him. Philippians 4:6-7 says In nothing be anxious, but in everything, by prayer and petition with thanksgiving, let your requests be made known to God. And the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and your thoughts in Christ Jesus. We pray that this peace will guard your heart and mind in these days.
We want to gently and lovingly say that taking your own life is not the answer and is not Gods will for you. He has thoughts of hope and a future for you. Jeremiah 29:11 says For I know the thoughts that I think toward you, says Yahweh, thoughts of peace, and not of evil, to give you hope and a future. Even when you feel like you have failed, His grace is still sufficient for you. 2 Corinthians 12:9 says My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness. God can use even this setback to draw you closer to Him and to strengthen you for the calling He has placed on your life to care for others through nursing. Isaiah 41:10 says Dont you be afraid, for I am with you. Dont be dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you. Yes, I will help you. Yes, I will uphold you with the right hand of my righteousness.
We understand how heavy depression feels and we encourage you not to walk through this alone. Please reach out right away to a trusted person such as a pastor, a counselor, a professor, a family member, or a medical professional and tell them what you are feeling. If these thoughts of harming yourself grow stronger, please seek help immediately from someone near you or from a local crisis helpline or emergency services. God often brings His comfort and help through the people He places around us.
We are praying for your healing from depression and for your studies at the same time, trusting Gods will above our own desires.
We pray together for you. Father in heaven, we lift this dear student to You in the name of Jesus Christ. You know her name, You know her tears, and You know the weight she is carrying. We ask You to touch her heart and heal her from depression. Replace despair with hope, heaviness with Your peace, and loneliness with the assurance that You are with her. Draw her much closer to the Lord Jesus Christ, let her know Your love in a deeper way, and give her rest for her soul. We ask for Your hand upon her nursing studies. Give her clarity of mind, strength to study, discipline to persevere, and peace as she prepares for her exams. If it is Your will, open the way for her to pass her exams and to continue in nursing school and to reach the next year, and help her to use this vocation to glorify You and to serve others with compassion. Above all, let her future rest in Your hands and let her trust that You have a good plan for her life even through disappointment. Hold her fast and do not let her go. In Jesus name we pray. Amen.
We encourage you to stay in Gods Word daily, even in small portions, to pray honestly to Jesus as you already have, to rest and care for your body, and to study faithfully while trusting the outcome to Him. Whether the path forward is a retake, a new opportunity, or a different door God opens, He is still leading you. Keep seeking Him first and keep asking for help from those around you. We are continuing to pray for you to be healed, to be close to Christ, and to see Gods strength made perfect in your weakness.