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drthaynes
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I was writing a novel called Paranoia and realized it made me paranoid and deal with the onset of nighmares and horror memories I really wish to let go. I feel fear, uncomfortable and paranoid too much,. I have ppossibly placed false blame on others, because I don't know what really happened and only see the main attacker and hear other voices. I can't explain the reasons and it's just simply evil. However, I want to let go and let "God," work in my favor. No more negative books or comments and it's really hard, because I am recalling the horror through nighhtmares of being kicked, sexually assaulted, burned with a cigarette and threats from 1-2 former employees possibly??? I don't have money or own anything valuable, and I have no real enemies, or not harmful ones--I believe. IT JUST DOES NOT MAKE SeNSE AT ALL!! However, I want tor really allow God to work in my life and handle the PARANOIA. The novel was a horrible idea and painful, sleeping is more painful. I now have to move and will never find comfort in Georiga. In addition, people played petty pleasure with circumstances and added to the gossip and drama. I am just overcoming an episode of diabetic II/Sickle Cell set back, which was severe due to weight - enviornmental allergies I have made accomplishments, but really need Jehovah and due to the gosip I can't even walk/sit in the Kingdom Hall at times. The town is small and the gossip is more important then serious issues we need to resolve in the world. However, I am handling issues and it's a lot better now. Less people seeking my attention for enjoyment of my hardship and others who dealt with this strife. I am just asking to be placed on the prayer list and I know "God is greater than any problem." I have visions, but wealth is secondary to spiritual growth and family-self development. I also want to pray for my family, friends and enemies....
