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drthaynes
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I was writing a novel called Paranoia and realized it made me paranoid and deal with the onset of nightmares and horror memories. I really wish to let go. I feel fear, uncomfortable, and paranoid too much. I have possibly placed false blame on others because I don't know what really happened and only see the main attacker and hear other voices. I can't explain the reasons and it's just simply evil. However, I want to let go and let "God" work in my favor. No more negative books or comments, and it's really hard because I am recalling the horror through nightmares of being kicked, sexually assaulted, burned with a cigarette, and threats from 1-2 former employees possibly??? I don't have money or own anything valuable, and I have no real enemies, or not harmful ones—I believe. IT JUST DOES NOT MAKE SENSE AT ALL!! However, I want to really allow God to work in my life and handle the PARANOIA. The novel was a horrible idea and sleeping is more painful. I now have to move and will never find comfort in Georgia. In addition, people played petty pleasure with circumstances and added to the gossip and drama. I am just overcoming an episode of diabetic II/Sickle Cell setback, which was severe due to weight—environmental allergies. I have made accomplishments, but really need Jehovah and due to the gossip I can't even walk/sit in the Kingdom Hall at times. The town is small and the gossip is more important than serious issues we need to resolve in the world. However, I am handling issues and it's a lot better now. Less people seeking my attention for enjoyment of my hardship and others who dealt with this strife. I am just asking to be placed on the prayer list and I know "God is greater than any problem." I have visions, but wealth is secondary to spiritual growth and family-self development. I also want to pray for my family, friends, and enemies.
