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Dear Jesus, I feel a calling with You, finally, but it makes me afraid to accept it because I don't know how or if I could ever be worthy to accept it. God, today I have felt like maybe You are calling me to be a minister. Lord, the trepidation in my heart about it has to do with how 'I don't measure up', though I know I am already redeemed. When I first came to You, it was through ministry, and in everything I have done since then I have always involved ministry as much as I could in it because it has always made me feel whole to minister to You, Jesus Christ. I just don't know if I am a pure enough man to accept such a calling, I feel like people look to ministers to be the best examples of God's righteousness and truth - whereas my life in many places feels full of mistakes and impurities. More than anything, God, I don't want to be a minister if it means somehow through my faults as a human being which certainly riddle my past that somehow I would distract or tarnish what I know cannot be tarnished in You, and that is Your truth.
I am not here to ask for a sign, Jesus Christ, if You are not willing to give one freely to me. I do not want to offend You God by asking about this. I am just looking for Your plan for me, and I know You have one. So, signs or no signs, please fill me with clarity about Your plan for me in all of its awesomeness and goodness. Help me to turn this life into the life You are intending me to have, because without Your light Jesus truly here I am totally blind. I know that it is written: 'Who is blinder than My servant?' And I want to be Your servant. It has been too long since I have felt that I am truly walking in the full righteousness and armor of God. In Jesus Christ's name I am asking for these things, and I am offering thanks for the prayer You answered today about my marriage. Your answer came so quick, and with so much love. I am in awe of You, God, and I am grateful to You very much so. Hallelujah, in Jesus name, amen.
I am not here to ask for a sign, Jesus Christ, if You are not willing to give one freely to me. I do not want to offend You God by asking about this. I am just looking for Your plan for me, and I know You have one. So, signs or no signs, please fill me with clarity about Your plan for me in all of its awesomeness and goodness. Help me to turn this life into the life You are intending me to have, because without Your light Jesus truly here I am totally blind. I know that it is written: 'Who is blinder than My servant?' And I want to be Your servant. It has been too long since I have felt that I am truly walking in the full righteousness and armor of God. In Jesus Christ's name I am asking for these things, and I am offering thanks for the prayer You answered today about my marriage. Your answer came so quick, and with so much love. I am in awe of You, God, and I am grateful to You very much so. Hallelujah, in Jesus name, amen.
