Dear brother - you can't give up. Because to do so allows the devil to laugh at you, at Jesus and discounts all the hard work you have done to get to this point. Don't give him that satisfaction. When I get down like that, and trust me - our circumstances may not be the same, and I don't know the issues you are dealing with, but I have dealt wtih many, many, "more than my share" as people say, of life trials. When you get to feeling like this just take life second by second, then minute by minute, then hour by hour, then day by day. Just live in the moment and do what you need to get by, ie: take a hot bath to relax your body, or go for a run to relieve the stress, or talk to a counsellor or someone who is a good sounding board. Eat well. But more than any of that put on the praise music. Look up joyful Christians. Look up the miracles that Jesus did. Watch the you tube video with song, "Mary Did you Know". Seriously, praise music will lift your spirit. Read the Bible. Dearest Father - please take all of this brother's pain and emotions that are bringing him so down, trying to control his life and mind. Free him from this bondage and fill his heart with peace and calm. Let him know that you are there for him and want to carry him and take over all his concerns. Let him feel your presence, your loving touch. You are his everything and to you he is your everything. You created him to share in your life. We just have to wait a bit more. Help him with whatever is laying heavy on his mind. Let him know that these may be huge issues but that to you they are like dust - visible but easily blown away when the time is right. Carry this man in your arms and let him feel loved and worthy - because if You created him, and You make no mistakes, then he is here for a reason. Hold him close in your two hands, warm and secure, like a baby bird. In Jesus' name, amen.