Netta
Humble Servant of All
Im not tasting things right like I used to.
Like drinks would make me sick from the bad taste I get from them, which never used to happen.
I know this must all be a trick of the mind and all in my head because I know deep down that things usually taste good and not like something horrible.
Vegetables and fruits always used to taste fresh and the fruits sweet and fresh.
And usually the home-made foods taste good...everything used to taste good.
And pepper usually tastes right, but for some reason, it tastes horrible like something gross.
My mom tells me it's my illness that is causing these problems with my taste and smell.
And that's another thing.
I smell things wrong and sometimes I smell things that are not even there, kind of like an illusion to the nose from the mind and from things in the past too.
I don't like it when I taste or smell things that are not there that are from the past because it just brings me back, puts me in the past in the memory or time I smelled those things because it makes me sick for some reason.
Probably because it's weird that I'm even smelling things that are not even there and I just get creeped out and creeped out from my imagination too.
And it's like I'm constantly having an illusion on my mind with things and my mind is playing tricks on me and I'm constantly stuck in something I don't like at all.
Because I'm always brought back to the past by things I smell that are not there that I have smelled in the past and sometimes those smells don't even smell right either.
And the drinks I drink that are sugary...taste like the horrible diet taste and they are not even diet! And a lot of times I taste bitterness and the drinks are not even bitter.
And when they are really drinks that are bitter, they don't even taste like the right bitter taste.
And drinks used to taste horrible, period, anyways. I don't know why they don't taste refreshing or fruity when I drink the fruity ones and they always taste sour when they are supposed to taste sweet.
And that is another thing too now...the sweet stuff tastes horrible to me now.
But at least I have times when things do taste right and good.
But it's back and forth; I would either taste things horribly or it would taste right for a split second or moment and then it will go back to horrible again and sometimes I don't even taste anything at all.
Like that taste just got taken out of my mouth because it does not taste good...like whatever it is that takes the taste away is doing me a favor by just relieving me of the awful taste in my mouth that I get from something that should taste right and good. And sometimes it goes back to how I usually taste things which is not right either because all the fruity drinks taste sour, which I know is not how it tastes because they are supposed to taste sweet most of the time unless they are really a sour drink and that is just getting old and not so refreshing...all of the things that are supposed to taste sweet and good taste sour like I said and it is getting old.
And I try to drink lemon in water because it is good for me and I just taste the sour. I don't taste the whole flavor of the lemon...it's just sour...but like I said, it is good for you/me because of the vitamin C that is in it and helps to give bowel movements so I drink it anyway.
Well anyways, everyone please pray for my senses and the tricks of the mind and my tasting and smell problems PLEASE.
I'm tired of all this because I want to really enjoy life and not be stuck in the past or tasting things horribly or smelling things that are not really there and to smell things right.
I just want refreshing smell and taste.
And I have another thing I keep smelling garlic when it is not even there and sometimes it's garlic breath that is not even there and that smells horrible.
Please keep me in your prayers everyone.
Like drinks would make me sick from the bad taste I get from them, which never used to happen.
I know this must all be a trick of the mind and all in my head because I know deep down that things usually taste good and not like something horrible.
Vegetables and fruits always used to taste fresh and the fruits sweet and fresh.
And usually the home-made foods taste good...everything used to taste good.
And pepper usually tastes right, but for some reason, it tastes horrible like something gross.
My mom tells me it's my illness that is causing these problems with my taste and smell.
And that's another thing.
I smell things wrong and sometimes I smell things that are not even there, kind of like an illusion to the nose from the mind and from things in the past too.
I don't like it when I taste or smell things that are not there that are from the past because it just brings me back, puts me in the past in the memory or time I smelled those things because it makes me sick for some reason.
Probably because it's weird that I'm even smelling things that are not even there and I just get creeped out and creeped out from my imagination too.
And it's like I'm constantly having an illusion on my mind with things and my mind is playing tricks on me and I'm constantly stuck in something I don't like at all.
Because I'm always brought back to the past by things I smell that are not there that I have smelled in the past and sometimes those smells don't even smell right either.
And the drinks I drink that are sugary...taste like the horrible diet taste and they are not even diet! And a lot of times I taste bitterness and the drinks are not even bitter.
And when they are really drinks that are bitter, they don't even taste like the right bitter taste.
And drinks used to taste horrible, period, anyways. I don't know why they don't taste refreshing or fruity when I drink the fruity ones and they always taste sour when they are supposed to taste sweet.
And that is another thing too now...the sweet stuff tastes horrible to me now.
But at least I have times when things do taste right and good.
But it's back and forth; I would either taste things horribly or it would taste right for a split second or moment and then it will go back to horrible again and sometimes I don't even taste anything at all.
Like that taste just got taken out of my mouth because it does not taste good...like whatever it is that takes the taste away is doing me a favor by just relieving me of the awful taste in my mouth that I get from something that should taste right and good. And sometimes it goes back to how I usually taste things which is not right either because all the fruity drinks taste sour, which I know is not how it tastes because they are supposed to taste sweet most of the time unless they are really a sour drink and that is just getting old and not so refreshing...all of the things that are supposed to taste sweet and good taste sour like I said and it is getting old.
And I try to drink lemon in water because it is good for me and I just taste the sour. I don't taste the whole flavor of the lemon...it's just sour...but like I said, it is good for you/me because of the vitamin C that is in it and helps to give bowel movements so I drink it anyway.
Well anyways, everyone please pray for my senses and the tricks of the mind and my tasting and smell problems PLEASE.
I'm tired of all this because I want to really enjoy life and not be stuck in the past or tasting things horribly or smelling things that are not really there and to smell things right.
I just want refreshing smell and taste.
And I have another thing I keep smelling garlic when it is not even there and sometimes it's garlic breath that is not even there and that smells horrible.
Please keep me in your prayers everyone.
