Anonymous
Beloved of All
I've been praying a good five month's here. I have someone who is always on my heart and I'm always drawn to pray for. I didn't like some things about our friendship and I ended it. I believe she has issues and in turn some of her actions were confusing and hurting. She has had a rough life. We were friends and buried in me were deeper feelings I kept suppressed. I thought being friends were enough. They came out later and she found it all here along with what I thought was wrong with her. I asked God to remove these feelings but I can't. I prayed elsewhere and I think she found me again. I've given up the idea of a deep relationship because it isn't practical and have been successful in purging this out of me. I still love this person. We definitely don't see eye to eye on why things got so bad. I have my perception and that is what this relationship lacked. I don't feel I was allowed to have my own feelings and be allowed to reason this. So here I am still needing to pray for her. Missing her. Not trusting her with all that though. It seems she even wants control of my prayers for her. God, change us or change my circumstance be it my situation or thoughts. As for hers, I give her to You.
