God bless you. You seem like a man who gamble with your faith, who throw dices in many different direction, hoping that one will fall in the right place. This man is a double-minded and it is in your prayer request. Well that is where you are. We all come from a certain state or place in our life before we come to Jesus. I just don't want to pray a prayer and also encourage you by not telling you the truth.
The true word of God says " .......GOD is a rewarder who diligently seeks Him". Not to those that worship another god. For the word of God says "I am the Lord Your God, and you shall not have any other gods before me". There are quite a number of people who were banned/not permitted to be on this site because they pray to Mary. Having different goddess and god brings confusion, and compromise and distort the word of God. Satan loves that.
Now before Jesus was born, there were many other false gods and goddesses. All these goddesses came of Babylonian, today this country is called Iraq, also called Ur, during Abraham's time. Coming out from Babylonian, there were numerous female goddesses. In Libya, Africa, she is called Astraea which is in the Bible, I believe in the book of Jeremiah. In Egypt, she is called Isis; in Zaire she is called Bachuba; in Iraq she is called Ishtar; in Greece- Demeter; Syria, she is called Astarte; in China, she is called Kuan Yin; Russia Mokosh; India she is called Rati.
You see, when Rome was persecuting the real and true Christians, the Church of our Lord Jesus Christ began to grow. I think Nero, persecuted and burned and killed the true Christians. I believe when the people saw the wickedness (good) they began to give their life to Christ. The leaders of Rome were losing grip and power over the people, so to keep them in control, they adopted this new religion only to change the names of the Greek gods and goddess and gave them Hebrew names that are in the Bible, and the methods of worship remain the same. God says in His words people perish for a lack of wisdom and knowledge. If you were to read the Bible, and believe the word of God, not only will it change you, but you will see the lies you have been taught over the years. By the way, the goddess Rome was worshipping was Sophia or Ceres, they just put the Jewish name over their previous one. It is all a cover up. I pray that you will truly seek the Lord Jesus Christ. and ask the Administrator to lead you to Christ. Your life will change forever. God bless you.
