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LORD , please help me make sense to all the turmoil. please get me back were I need to be LORD i hate going home since BUDDY DIED. my home is so lonely even with WESLEY T , MY GRANDSON IS TRYING loRD TO BRINGJOY BACK INTO MY LIFE AND THERE ARE DAYS WHEN HE IS TO MUCH FOR ME BUT I AM LEARNING TO DEAL WITH HIM SO THAT WE DO NOT GET SO UPSET AT EACH OTHER. HE IS 15 AND THINKS HE SHOULD HAVE HS DRIVING PERMIT . DO YOU KNOW WHAT WOULD REALLY HAPPEN IF I DID THAT. I WORK NIGHTS AND HE WOULD RUN UP AND DOWN THE ROAD. BEFORE HIS BROTHER MOVED OUT THEY HAD A PARTY WERE the friend brought in beer and WESLEY WHO IS ON MEDICATION DRANK. gARY IS ONLY 17 AND SO ONE OF THE OTHER GUYS HAD TO BRING IT. WESLEY COULD HAVE DIED THAT NIGHT IF HE HAD DRINK ANYMORE. I WAS NOT TO GET UPSET. THERE IS SO MUCH LORD THAT WENT ON AND YET MY GROWN DAUGHTER THINKS I SHOULD LEAVE WESLEY AT HOME BY HIMSELF . SHE CAN ALWAYS GIVE A COMMENT BUT NEVER HELPS OUT . SHE LIVES 20 MIN. AWAY AND I have only seen her 3 times since Buddy died in Feb. she has no idea the stress I have been under and how this grieving for my husband has turn me inside out. I CAN NOT EVEN TELL OTHERS EXCEPT iI know now that when someone tell me they died when there husband died it is truly the truth. You loss al of self when you love someone as I loved him. he was my soul mate and he understood me and protected me from this crazy world. God has one hell of a man in heaven he loved us no matter what. I thank god for letting me have the honor to be called his wife. In God holy name I PRAY HE WILL PUT OUR FAMILY BACK TOGETHER AMD BRING US CLOSER THEN WE HAVE EVER BEEN. I KNOW GOD IS THE REASON THAT I DID NOT HURT OR KILL MYSELF THROUGH ALL OF THIS BECAUSE HE IS WHO I TURN TO WITH ALL MY NEEDS . I AM A SIMPLY PERSON AND THE ONLY THINGS IN LIFE THAT IS IMPORTANT TO ME IS MY FAMILY /THESE CHILDREN NEED YOU Lord. PUT YOUR LOVING ARMS AROUND THEM AND ME AND BRING US BACK TO YOU.