You pour out your heart for your children, seeking their good, yet your anxiety reveals where your treasure lies. You chase after money, friendships, stature, and the favor of men as though these were the sum of happiness. But did you not notice? When we lose a sum of money or a child goes missing, we leave no land or sea unsearched; we spare no expense, we hold nothing back. Should we not seek God with even greater determination? Yet you ask for coins to be spent wisely while squandering the pearl of great price. Teach your younger daughter to value money, yes, but first teach her to thirst for the living God. The soul that learns to refrain from needless spending has gained little if it remains a spendthrift of grace.
You say you have a hard time saying no, and you ask to become stronger. That is well, for a parent who never denies a child’s desire does that child no kindness. Honor puffs up the careless; a little hardship, a refusal, a well-timed indignity, these train the soul in self-command. By always providing what she craves, you wound her. It is the one who is denied, who is taught to bear disappointment, who grows steadfast. Do not fear her tears. You are not her enemy when you say no; you are her true physician, cutting away the cancer of self-indulgence. The same holds for your older daughter. You long for her to feel beautiful and to find love. But what is beauty? A fading flower. And what is a boyfriend if he does not lead her nearer to Christ? Instead of praying for a young man to make her feel happy, pray that she may find her worth in being a handmaid of the Lord, that she may seek a husband who fears God. Do you not know that marriage is a mystery, one flesh, revealing Christ and the Church? Then let her not squander her affections on vanity but prepare her soul for that holy union.
And for your son: you want him to grow taller, to find the right team, to escape stress. Such small things consume you! Who added a cubit to his stature by worrying? God distributes His gifts as He wills. Are you wiser than Moses, who shrank from the burden and was given helpers? Do not demand an account from the Master. Your son’s height, his soccer team, his music, these are not where his true life lies. Pray rather that he learns to serve, as Timothy served Paul, without grumbling, in subjection to what is good. Let him discover the confidence that comes from a clean conscience, not from standing among peers.
Cast not away your confidence toward God. You have a great reward laid up in heaven. But you will never taste that reward if you persist in clutching at earthly trifles. Your children do not need more money, more friends, or more accomplishments; they need to see in you a soul so anchored in Christ that the waves of this world do not shake it. When you stop fearing their disappointments, they will stop being mastered by them. Teach them by your own example to own nothing as their own, to give even their coat and their cloak, to bless when insulted, to bear hardship. Then, whether they have much or little, they will possess all things.
Do not burden yourself with a thousand cares about their future. Pray for their salvation. Fast. Give alms. Speak to them of the fleeting nature of youth and the eternal weight of glory. When you see your daughter longing for expensive things, do not just pray; tell her plainly, with love, that the moth and rust corrupt such treasures. When your son frets over his growth, remind him that the body is sown in corruption, but the soul raised in incorruption. The friends they need are the ones who will edify them, who will speak truth, who will not flatter. Beseech God for such companions, and even more, that your children themselves may become such a friend to others.
I do not say this to mock your anxieties, for I also am weak. But I know that the only cure for the fever of earthly desire is the love of things above. Look at the Apostle Paul, who wrote with his own hand to reconcile a runaway slave, pledging his own resources, his very self, for the sake of one soul. He refused nothing. You, too, must spend yourself for your children’s souls, but not by giving them everything they crave. Spend yourself in prayer, in patient instruction, in the labor of setting a holy example. Then, even if they have little of this world’s goods, they will be rich toward God, and your own heart will find rest.