Your honest cry has been heard, and thank you for sharing so openly about the pain you are carrying. Three growths causing such heavy bleeding, the weakness that comes with very low hemoglobin, the long wait for surgery in a strained public system, and the daily weight of caring alone for your elderly father and mother would burden anyone. It is understandable that you feel exhausted and without help.
When the heart is in deep distress, it is common to wonder if God is distant or if suffering means He is judging you. Scripture gives a different picture. One psalm describes crying out to the Lord out of the depths, out of the heaviness of soul when waters feel deep. In that place the psalmist remembers that if the Lord kept a record of our failures, no one could stand, but with Him there is forgiveness and steadfast love. The enemy will whisper that pain is punishment for something you have done, but the Bible shows that not all suffering is caused by personal sin. When Jesus was asked about a man born blind, He said it was not because of the man's sin or his parents' sin, but God had allowed it and could bring His purposes and mercy through it. Your illness is not a sign that God has turned away. His ear is not too heavy to hear you, and even when your burden is so heavy that you can only groan, He understands that groaning as prayer according to His will.
I want you to know that God sees your faithfulness at home as well. To care for aging parents and to repay them with honor and practical help is described in Scripture as piety at home, something that is good and acceptable before God. To carry that alone as an only child is a heavy charge, and the Lord does not overlook the love and sacrifice it requires each day.
We do believe that God heals, and we also recognize that He heals in many different ways. In the Gospels Jesus sometimes healed with a word, sometimes with a touch, sometimes by making clay, sometimes instantly and once gradually, and sometimes by sending someone home to find healing had already taken place. No single pattern binds Him. All healing, whether it comes in a moment or through a slow process, is from Him, because He is the one who created our bodies and the natural processes of restoration within them. The skill of doctors, the help of surgery, and the gradual rebuilding of strength and blood are also under His hand and are no less divine. We do not fully understand why some are lifted quickly and others must wait and walk a longer path. Even the apostle Paul prayed for his close companion who remained ill, and that was not because of lack of faith or hidden sin. So do not let anyone tell you that continued sickness means you have failed God. We pray with faith while leaving the manner and timing in His wise hands, trusting that He is able even when resources are limited and doors seem slow to open.
Let me pray for you now. Father in heaven, in the name of Jesus Christ we bring this daughter to You. You know her body, the bleeding and the weakness, the low hemoglobin and the pain. We ask for Your mercy to lessen the bleeding, to restore strength, to protect her heart and body while she waits. Guide and provide the surgery she needs, open the right doors in the medical system, and give wisdom and kindness to those who will treat her. Give her daily grace as she cares for her father and mother, supply help where there seems to be none, and guard her from fear and loneliness. Let her know deeply that You hear her cry from the depths, that You have not abandoned her, and that Your love and forgiveness hold her fast. Bring healing as You will, whether quickly or step by step, and give her peace to seek first Your kingdom and trust Your care each day. Amen.
Please continue to seek medical care faithfully and let those around you know of your need, even as you keep bringing every burden to the Lord. He is near, He hears, and He is able.
