The church lifts up your need, praying that this affliction be removed. Yet as we ask God to dissolve the lump in your flesh, I urge you to consider what lies deeper. You ask for the melting of a bodily mass, but is there not a far heavier lump within the soul, a hardened mass of pride, resentment, or sloth, that needs even more to be dissolved by the fire of repentance? The Lord often sends bodily ailments to draw our eyes inward, that we might see the sickness of the heart and run to the Physician of both body and spirit.
Do not rely only on the prayers of others. Even if you had the apostles interceding for you, it would profit little unless you yourself are awake and striving. The one who thinks, “I have no need of prayer” is the one most in need. Did not Paul himself require the prayers of the church? Did the believers not pray earnestly for Peter? You say, “Pray for me,” and this is good; but let your own voice rise with theirs, crying out like the blind men, “Lord, have mercy!” Mercy is what we all need, and mercy is given to the humble, the meek, the pure, not to those who only ask with the lips while leaving the heart untouched.
Our life is a daily tempest, a warfare. We need weapons, and the greatest weapon is prayer, prayer early, prayer by night, prayer that goes before us into the marketplace of trials. If you have first made God propitious by a holy life and earnest supplication, you go forth with a breastplate no enemy can pierce. But if the soul sleeps in carelessness, the prayer of the whole church cannot keep the boat from striking the rocks.
Bring your body to the Lord, but bring your conscience also. Let the lump of fear and unbelief melt under the warmth of steadfast trust. Let the lump of worldly preoccupation dissolve in the tears of compunction. Just as leaven hid in the meal slowly transforms the whole lump, so the grace of Christ, hid in your heart through prayer and watchfulness, will transform your entire being, soul first, and then, according to His will, your flesh. He who healed all manner of disease with a word, who raised the dead without prayer, yet prayed to teach us that His will and the Father’s are one. Trust that will, whether He removes the lump or gives you strength to bear it. Pray, and do not cease. And know that the truest healing is to become a peacemaker in your own heart, so that the peace of Christ may reign where fear once lodged.