kiaramurray
Humble Prayer Partner
I'm 18 years old and I have two very small little girls. A 17-month-old & a almost 3-week-old who was born 2 months early and is still in the NICU. Their father got out of prison in July 2012 and that's when I got pregnant with my second daughter. My life has not been the same. I feel so lost. I don't have any help from him. He texts or calls me and says how much he hates me and my kids. He says f*** us. My kids never did anything to him for him to say those things neither did I. He has other kids and he'll send me pictures of stuff that he buys them or pictures of him showing a bunch of money. He's very childish. He does not do anything for my girls. I blame myself because I should have been smarter about finding the right person to have kids with. I'm so hurt. As I'm writing this, I'm holding back tears. I just want someone to tell me that everything is going to be okay. Every night I worry myself almost to death because I feel so bad for my kids. What did they do to deserve this? Why? I don't understand! Just to know their dad doesn't live far and he never comes to see them. To know that he made them and he cares nothing about them. The only reason I won't change my number is because jobs that call me or our doctors. I pray I get my own car and place soon. I know I'm young, please don't judge me, but I'm doing my best. I messed up but I'm trying to fix it. I don't know how to pray. I never learned. I wonder sometimes, does God hear me? Does he care about me and my kids? He said he'll never leave us but it feels like he has. I'm tired of stressing and hurting. I just want my life back. At times, it's hard for me to get things for my kids. They didn't ask to be here and they have to go through this. I need someone to pray for me and my daughter. Ask God, does he care about us. Ask God, why did he leave us. God, where are you? I need you badly. I need you, please come back into our life. Someone please pray for us 3, PLEASE.
