dontezellezy
Disciple of Prayer
I would like prayer request please I been crying so much my eyes are blood shot red I have a headache I can't sleep and when I do I toss and turn my life is a wrec right now. I have a marriage broken up I have two kids who I want to see so bad to raise them the way I dreamed to raise them. I'm crying just typing this request I'm ### year old male who has lived a tuff life I know its all catching up to me however I been trying to live right with God but I don't know if I'm living the Christian life the right way or if something is missing I feel like God does not hear my plead with Him I'm begging Him at this point to give me peace. I don't know if God is telling me I'm married to wrong person or God is telling me work it out I'm confused and lost I asked my wife to move from her family and move with me asap caus I miss my ### month old son. and I talk to her once a week and we married. I don't know what to do I did things in the Early relationship that I did that was not fare to her but at this point I want to stop all the drama and work out the right way. now I don't wana work it out with a person who I tell and they take it lightly esp with my son I'm hurting knowing my child out there without his daddy in his life. I'm confused what do I do? I been reading the Bible for a week or two and praying. I went to church today however every 30mins I think of my life and how its in a wrec right now. I have no other support but a friend who encourages me to keep faith. it's hard to even read the Bible when I keep having flashbacks of my kids smile and eyes I get a few scriptures in then bust up crying I'm lost and don't know what to do. the sad thing is I read all other prayer request on this site and I see how everyone needs God right now and I wish I had enough power to fix everybodys situation this second I'm just hurting and need all of u please help me God I'm begging u father I will pay for what I did in the past to people and actions just speak to me what you want me to do about my life this second and when how do I start or finish I'm lost please help I begg I begg I begg I begg Lord give me peace please I'm crying my eyes out.
