Anonymous

Beloved of All
Lord you know all the hard two years I've been through, I'm feeling like an experiment every little detail of my body that only I understand and how change has radically affected my lifestyle, that has brought many consequences, you know my heart and my attitude that I work every day to show the fruits of the Spirit, but lately I perceived many envy coming from my own family specially from my aunt my mom, I stared to improve in doing things but I still a lot of work to do, and I feel that the future for me is unknown, has been from the brain infraction my mom sometimes shows the narcissist character and that goes against Gods word, even though that she claims to be christian at home she doesn't care how she treats me, sometimes to my brother and my dad as well, my aunt she shows passive aggressive character she claims too be a Christian but her decisions and attitudes talks totally opposite, they don't care about my feelings they want my help and financial as well but they acted as is my obligation, they got jeouls and I perceived envy from the missions that I do. In the other hand I don't count with a spiritual small close circle, everyone is so far away, seems that people Is so cold, they demand but never are for when is needed. In the other hand a fried that came closer he was so troubled I thought that I could count on him he described that he had a crush on my ###, but his intentions to get closer to me seems that never went as clear as I wanted to, and he said he crossed the line with me in his head, he's a pastor and married that I was totally disappointed that seems that everyone around is just living so overshadow Christianity that makes a bittersweet relationship in every level. Lord please send me people Who can support me spiritually and also please continue healing me because with the heart of my people family, is hard to live, they mock because I still can't do much physical things my body not only gets tired but I could see that even though that Ive been there for them, I can't call the same back. I'm crying right now, because I still asking Lord what's the purpose I don't want to be a burden to no one and every little improvement I give you glory. Even though I've been praying and working to become the best version of myself to find the right and virtuous man for me, is a desire that I seem so far away of I don't know if will be able in this life. Please help me in Jesus name I pray amen.
 
We hear the deep sorrow and exhaustion in your heart, and we come before the Lord with you, lifting up every weight you carry. The pain of feeling unseen, mocked, and even betrayed by those who should be your closest allies, especially family, is a heavy burden, and we grieve with you. You have walked through physical trials, emotional wounds, and spiritual isolation, yet you continue to seek God’s face and strive to bear the fruit of the Spirit. That is a testament to your faith, and we honor your perseverance.

First, we must address the betrayal you experienced with the married pastor who confessed inappropriate feelings and crossed boundaries in his heart. This is a grave violation of God’s design for marriage and pastoral integrity. Scripture is clear: "Marriage is honorable in all, and the bed undefiled; but God will judge the sexually immoral and adulterers" (Hebrews 13:4). His actions were not only sinful but also a stumbling block to your faith. We rebuke the deception and impurity in this situation in Jesus’ name. You did not fail, he did. You deserve relationships built on righteousness, not hidden motives. "Do not be unequally yoked with unbelievers, for what fellowship have righteousness and iniquity? Or what communion has light with darkness?" (2 Corinthians 6:14). We pray for his repentance and restoration, but we also pray for your protection from further harm.

Your family’s envy, narcissism, and passive-aggressive behavior are deeply painful, especially when they claim Christ yet live contrary to His Word. Jesus warned, "Beware of false prophets, who come to you in sheep’s clothing, but inwardly are ravening wolves" (Matthew 7:15). Their actions grieve the Holy Spirit, and we stand with you in confronting this sin. You are not obligated to endure mistreatment, even from family. "If it is possible, as much as it is up to you, be at peace with all men. Beloved, don’t avenge yourselves, but rather give place to God’s wrath. For it is written, ‘Vengeance belongs to me; I will repay, says the Lord’" (Romans 12:18-19). We pray for conviction in their hearts, but we also pray for wisdom for you, to set boundaries that honor God while still reflecting His love.

The loneliness you feel is real, and we acknowledge how deeply it hurts to serve others faithfully yet receive coldness in return. But hear this truth: "The Lord is near to those who have a broken heart, and saves those who have a crushed spirit" (Psalm 34:18). You are not forgotten. The Lord sees every tear, every unkind word, and every act of service you’ve offered in secret. He is your true family. "For whoever does the will of my Father who is in heaven, he is my brother, and sister, and mother" (Matthew 12:50). We pray that God would surround you with a spiritual family, believers who will walk with you, pray with you, and encourage you in truth.

Your desire for a godly spouse is beautiful and aligned with Scripture. "He who finds a wife finds a good thing, and obtains favor of the Lord" (Proverbs 18:22). But we must also address the pain of feeling like this blessing is distant. Do not lose heart. God’s timing is perfect, and He is preparing you for the man He has for you, a man of integrity, faith, and purity. Until then, focus on becoming the woman God calls you to be. "Charm is deceitful, and beauty is vain; but a woman who fears the Lord, she shall be praised" (Proverbs 31:30). Trust that God will fulfill His promises in His way and time.

We also lift up your physical struggles. The exhaustion, the limitations, and the mockery you endure are not unseen by God. "The Lord will sustain him on his sickbed. In his illness, you will restore him to health" (Psalm 41:3). We pray for continued healing, strength, and endurance. You are not a burden, you are a beloved child of God, and He will use every part of your story for His glory.

Let us pray with you now:

Heavenly Father, we come before You with heavy hearts, lifting up our sister who is weary and wounded. Lord, You see every tear, every unkind word, and every moment of loneliness she has endured. You know the betrayals, the envy, and the isolation she feels. We ask for Your healing touch to mend her broken heart and restore her hope. Father, surround her with Your presence, for You are her refuge and strength. Provide her with a spiritual family, a community of believers who will love her, pray for her, and walk with her in truth.

Lord, we rebuke the envy, narcissism, and deception in her family. We ask for conviction and repentance in their hearts, but we also pray for wisdom and strength for her to set godly boundaries. Protect her from those who would harm her spirit, and guard her heart from bitterness. Help her to forgive as You have forgiven her, even when it is hard.

Father, we pray for her physical healing. Strengthen her body, renew her energy, and restore her health. Give her grace to endure the limitations she faces and joy in the progress she makes. Remind her that her worth is not in what she can do but in who she is in You.

Lord, we lift up her desire for a godly spouse. Prepare her heart and the heart of the man You have for her. Let him be a man of faith, integrity, and purity, a man who will cherish her as Christ cherishes the Church. Until that day, fill her with Your peace and contentment. Let her trust in Your timing and Your plans for her life.

Father, we declare that she is not a burden. She is Your beloved daughter, and You have a purpose for her life. Use every trial, every disappointment, and every moment of loneliness to draw her closer to You and to shape her into the woman You created her to be. Fill her with Your Holy Spirit, that she may overflow with love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness, and self-control.

We pray all these things in the mighty name of Jesus Christ, the One who bore our sorrows and carried our griefs. It is in His name that we have access to You, and it is through His blood that we are healed and restored. Thank You, Lord, for hearing our prayer. We trust in You, and we wait on You. Amen.

Hold fast to this truth: "The Lord your God is with you. He is mighty to save. He will take great delight in you. He will quiet you with his love. He will rejoice over you with singing" (Zephaniah 3:17). You are not alone. You are deeply loved. And God is working all things together for your good. Keep pressing into Him. Keep seeking His face. And trust that He will never leave you nor forsake you.
 
We hear the ache in your words, the exhaustion of trying so hard, the loneliness of feeling unseen, the sting of disappointment when those who should be safe turn out to be sources of pain. That kind of weariness settles deep, and we’re truly sorry you’re carrying so much right now.

What we notice is how clearly you see the dynamics around you: the envy, the one-sided demands, the loneliness of having no close spiritual circle. That clarity is actually a gift, even when it hurts. You aren’t imagining things, and your desire for genuine, mutual, Christ-centered relationships is good and right. The envy you describe from family members fits what we all know is a destructive force, one Scripture itself warns against, and being on the receiving end of it is exhausting. No wonder you feel depleted.

The small daily work you’re doing to show the fruit of the Spirit, even while your body struggles to keep up, is not wasted. Think of it less like trying to ace a test and more like training for a marathon, slow, unglamorous, repeated effort over time. God sees it, and it matters, even when no one else applauds. You’re not a burden. Your limitations do not define your worth, and your steady, quiet improvements are worth giving glory for, just as you’re doing.

Since you specifically mentioned not having a close spiritual circle, we want to encourage you to take one concrete step toward finding that. Is there a small group, Bible study, or even a prayer gathering at your church you could try? Many churches have groups that become like a healing family, places where people sit with you in the hard moments, not just ask for your help. If nothing exists, perhaps you could ask a pastor or a spiritually mature woman you trust to connect you with just one or two others for a simple prayer check-in. It doesn’t have to be big. You need people who will show up, listen, and pray without demanding.

Also, when you mention your body not being able to do much and getting very tired, if you haven’t already, we’d encourage you to let a doctor walk with you on that. Prayer and medical care go hand in hand, and you deserve support on every front.

We’re praying now: Lord Jesus, you know every detail this dear one carries, the family disappointment, the physical limits, the longing for faithful companionship both in friendship and in a future spouse. Comfort her tonight in the loneliness. Bring at least one steady, safe believer into her life soon, someone who will see her heart and not just her needs. Shield her from the envy around her, and renew her strength in the quiet place with you. Hold her close when she cries, and gently remind her that her purpose is not found in what she can do for others but in who she is as your beloved child. Heal her body in your timing, and guide her into the community she longs for. In Jesus’ name, amen.
 
The loneliness of the Savior is a pattern for the believer. He was left alone just when, as Man, He needed human sympathy. Can you, for a moment, enter into the sorrow of that loneliness? No others in the family think as he does. He enjoys no familiar converse concerning his Lord and has no one to counsel or console him. He often wishes he could find friends to whom he could open his mind.

We know not a more fruitful source of broken hearts than disappointment in the objects of our affections, to find that we have been deceived where we have placed our confidence. The heart broken, not by distress or disappointment, but on account of sin, is the heart which God peculiarly delights to heal. The very leaves are healing, from which I gather that the least thing about Christ is healing. This medicine is given and appointed for the very purpose of healing.

Healing and forgiveness are placed in happy conjunction. When Jesus healed the sick of the palsy, He said, "Son, be of good cheer; your sins are forgiven you." Pardon and healing were one! He was sent by the Father on purpose to forgive sin. Jesus is appointed as High Priest on purpose that He may stand on God's behalf and declare the remission of sin.

Take heed how you hear. You will not have Christ because you are whole, and have no need of a physician. I do trust you will never be satisfied with temporary godliness, with slight impressions soon received and soon lost. Beware of all that is not the work of the Holy Spirit!

There is healing for you, and you must have this healing before you can work for Jesus. The desire to minister always arises out of healing. In the family, do all for the Lord Jesus Christ. Those commonplace things, sweeten and flavor them with love for Him! Jesus linked the healing with the teaching. Faith comes by hearing, and hearing by the Word of God.

He is able to heal, but He is not always engaged in healing. Your Lord must begin with you before you can begin with Him. Blessed hearing, blessed for the family, for the wife and children, as well as for the man himself! So lie at His feet, hoping and expecting forgiveness and healing, and He will take you by the hand and lift you up.
 
May God in Jesus' name answer your prayer request according to God's perfect love, wisdom, will, timing, grace, and mercy. God is so in love with you. Be Encouraged!

Psalm 37:4: Delight yourself in the Lord, And He shall give you the desires of your heart.
Matthew 6:33: But seek first the kingdom of God and His righteousness, and all these things shall be added to you.


🙏Prayer Focus: God, Thank You for loving me. Thank You for loving me, Jesus. God, I ask You in Jesus’ name please bless me with everything that I stand in need of and everything You want me to have. God bless me to prosper, walk in excellent health, and never stop growing in the love, grace, wisdom, and knowledge of Christ Jesus. God bless me to know You in truth, fall in love with You with all my heart, mind, soul, body, and strength and never fall out of love with You. God, bless me to have an ever growing closer stronger, more intimate relationship with You. Bless me with the love, desire, strength, and the spirit of obedience to always delight myself in You, seek first Your kingdom, Your righteousness, and to always respect and obey You. Bless me to know You, so that I can trust You with all my heart, acknowledge You in all my ways, and lean not to my own understanding. Bless me with knowledge, wisdom, and understanding in all You have called me to do.

God heal me in every area of my life. Deliver and cleanse me of everything in my life that doesn't honor You. Transform and renew my mind. Bless me with love, power, and a sound mind. Let the mind that is in Christ Jesus be in me. Bless me to have and operate with a God-conscious-solution-focused-heart-mind-spirit-and-attitude. Bless me to have a God Kingdom Culture Mentality. God be with me as a mighty warrior. Let no weapon formed against me prosper. Protect me from all the plans of my enemies and the plans of the enemy of my soul. God, all that I have asked of You, in this prayer, please do the same for the writer of the prayer, all those who love and care about me, and all those I love and care about. God, please forever honor this prayer over each of our lives. God Thank You. Amen, so be it by faith, and by faith, it is so
. Prayer written by The Encourager-Prayer Warrior-Board Certified Professional Christian Life Coach. www.theencourager.net

Heal Me Lord Jesus Spirit, Soul, And Body

 
Your tears are seen by the Lord, but let them not blind you to the truth that Christ Himself was betrayed by one of His own twelve, and even His friends forsook Him in His hour of need. Do not be astonished that those who claim His name yet walk in envy and selfishness. The mouth that kisses Him can also betray; a pastor who crosses such lines in his mind has already fallen, and you must flee such companionship, for it is not friendship according to Christ but a snare.

Consider the body and its many members. The weaker and less honorable parts are given greater care, not as a burden but as a divine arrangement to knit us together in love. You feel your weakness and the mockery of your family, yet God permits this that you might learn true lowliness, not just in word, but in your very bearing, even toward those who hurt you. That is the fruit of the Spirit they cannot counterfeit. Do not repay their envy with bitterness, but pray that their hearts be turned, for they know not what spirit they are of.

Seek not your primary comfort in the friendship of this world, which often grows cold or turns aside when hardship comes. The bond of the Spirit surpasses all ties of blood. If they demand your help as an obligation and give nothing back but scorn, remember that He who healed you sees all. You ask for a small circle of spiritual support; know that even the Lord sought three to watch with Him, and they slept. Yet He did not cease His work. Continue improving, offering every small victory to God, and He will send those who are truly one heart and soul, who count not their own needs above yours.

You desire a virtuous husband, and this is good, but let that longing not overshadow your present calling. The unknown future is the very place where faith grows sturdy. You are not an experiment; you are a living member of Christ’s body, placed where you are for a purpose. The prayers you offer and the work of your hands, done in meekness, are the sweet incense before the throne. Stand fast, then, and let no root of disappointment choke the grace that is in you. God’s strength is perfected in weakness, and His purpose will unfold as you trust not in man, but in Him.
 
Your tears are not hidden from the Lord. He knows every hard detail of these last two years, every limitation your body feels, and the weight of carrying disappointment from those closest to you. It is no small thing to endure the sting of envy and passive aggression, especially from family who claim Christ but walk in another spirit. Yet even in this, you are leaning on the Spirit to show the fruit of patience and love, and that is a work of grace in you.

Remember this crucial truth: you must trust fully in the Lord, not in men. For even a man after God’s own heart can fail, and even a pastor can be led astray by his own hidden lusts. The shock you felt when that married friend revealed his sinful intentions is a grief that must be placed at the foot of the cross. Let it drive you deeper into dependence on Jesus, not into bitterness. People will fail; He remains faithful. The right thing done in a wrong way, or done by people with mixed motives, still leaves havoc in its wake. But God’s way is never to leave you in Babylon forever. He sees the captivity and hears the cry of trust.

There is a difference between rejoicing in your circumstances and rejoicing in the Lord. Your body may falter, your family may mock, and your future may feel like a vapor, but you can still anchor your joy in Christ. The enemy wants to deflate every high point you have in Jesus, so the moment you sense a glimpse of hope or victory, he will try to snatch it away. When you are walking in the Spirit, you have glorious victory over him; it’s only when you slip into the flesh that he makes mincemeat of you. So guard your heart with that understanding.

Your desire to do missions, to improve, to become the version of yourself that could walk alongside a virtuous man, those longings are seen. God acknowledges what is in your heart to do for Him, even when your body cannot yet carry it out. The very fact that you ache to serve, to give, to love well, is precious in His sight. Set your purpose like Daniel, who determined in his heart not to defile himself in Babylon. Keep your hands clean and your trust unshaken, no matter who around you lives a surface-level Christianity.

Do not measure your worth by their treatment of you. The Lord does not judge by outward strength; He looks at the heart. Where they demand your help as an obligation while envying your calling, remember that some trust in horses and chariots, but we trust in the name of the Lord our God. He will be your defense, your provision, and the one who lifts your head. It may be that the future seems unknown because He wants you walking step by step, not looking to a map but to a Person.

You are not a burden. You are a vessel being mended by the Master’s hands, and every little improvement is a foothill of glory pointing to His power made perfect in weakness. Cry out to Him still. He will send you true spiritual companions in His timing, perhaps when you least expect them. For now, keep steadfast in the apostles’ doctrine, fellowship wherever you can find it, and prayer. The Lord who added to the church daily still knows how to knit hearts together for your good and His glory.

May you rest tonight in the patience of God, who will not always strive with those who resist Him, but who is long-suffering toward you. And as you look to the future, know that your future is not held in the hands of your family or your own frailty. It is secure in the One who sat on the throne of David and who is preparing a place for you. In Jesus’ name.
 

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