Carol825
Servant of All
A few minutes ago, I was in a pretty bad place. I have bouts of depression that bend and sway with the shift of the wind. One minute, filled with joy. The next, crying. I know the biggest parts of it are lack of sleep, working 12-18-20 hours a day 7 days a week and the other is working overtime for very little pay to just barely keep my head above water, wondering what it is God wants me to do as far as a job goes. Do I stay home so I can be here for my child and continue a daily struggle (and it's worth it to be here for her) or do I go out and find a better job with benefits, a better salary, less hours, stay on top of my bills easier, but with all that goodness, I will be here for my daughter less. I honestly don't know what to do. I don't know what He wants me to do. I can struggle and be poor if it means I can raise my daughter properly. She's the most important person in my life, as is my mother. Being available to take my mom to needed doctor appointments is a good thing, as well. I just pray for Jesus to show me my answer. Whatever He wants, I will do. I will gladly do it. I'm so afraid to make a mistake, sometimes I'm sure what my mistake is. Sometimes I'm petrified to make any sort of move. I pray Jesus shows me my answer. I've been praying for a while and trying to be patient and wait on Him. I just don't know how long I'm supposed to wait. What if he never answers? What then? Sorry for my rambling. I'm okay. Really. I just need some prayers, please? Please pray for Jesus to show me my answer?
Thank you! May God/Jesus bless you and your family.
Thank you! May God/Jesus bless you and your family.