You cry out for the Lord to answer quickly, but your prayer reveals a soul in tumult, tossed about by dreams and fears as a ship in a storm. Do you not know that the evil one sends such visions to trouble those who are not watchful? He does not let the unwary see the snare until their minds are tangled in it, and then he suggests that the answer is to command God as though He were a servant. You bind and rebuke and reject, piling up words as if by much speaking you will be heard. But where is the quiet trust that pleads, “Thy will be done”? Where is the self-examination that asks, “Am I living in such a way that these terrors lose their grip”?
Consider what you ask: that every unwanted dream be made void, that every wrong person be removed from your life and your relations’ lives forever, that you be kept from any unpleasant look or cross word. Is this the path of the saints, of whom the world was not worthy? They “were tortured, not accepting deliverance, that they might obtain a better resurrection.” Yet you would have no trial at all, no unkind face, no strain in any relationship. Your prayer is not for grace to bear injuries but for a life walled off from every discomfort. This is to seek a kingdom of ease, not the Kingdom of Heaven.
You demand that God erase future moments as though He were an editor of a book, and you bargain for a job with pay beyond what anyone expects. What is this but to make the Lord your merchant, owing you wages on your terms? Christ descended into the lower parts of the earth to deliver you from the tyrant, even the devil, and from death and the curse and sin. That is the captivity He broke. That is the deliverance you should seek above all. Yet you place more weight on a dream about someone making a face than on the state of your soul. You are more anxious about losing the relationships you want than about whether you offend God in them.
The devil often works through disorder and fear. He would keep you fixated on imaginary evils so that you neglect the real ones. You pray against wrong people, but the most dangerous enemy is not the one who might talk down on you; it is the pride and anger within your own breast. Examine whether you are covenant-breaking, without natural affection, implacable, unmerciful, even to those in your own house. If you have stored up bitterness, how can you pray this way? Repentance that comes only when the dream frightens you, and then demands immediate relief, resembles the remorse of Judas: he condemned his deed and threw down the silver, but he destroyed himself nonetheless, for his sorrow lacked humility and hope.
Stand still and cease striving. Commend yourself to God without dictating the outcome. If you suffer a harsh word, bless and do not curse. If a dream troubles you, say, “I have put on Christ. He is my shield. What can a shadow do to me?” The Lord delivered Paul from the lion's mouth, not by removing every threat but by preserving him for the Gospel. Seek that deliverance: to be kept from every evil work, that you may finish your course with joy. Pray for your enemies. Entrust your relationships to the One who sees what is best. And labor quietly, doing your duty, whether the job comes or not, knowing that the Father feeds the birds and clothes the grass.
Cast the burden of these anxieties upon Him. Fast, give alms, confess your sins, and attend the holy mysteries. Then you will find that the peace of Christ rules in your heart, and dreams lose their terror. Do not make God your debtor, but humble yourself under His mighty hand. The promise is not that you will have no unwanted persons around you, but that all things work together for good to them that love God. Lay hold of that, and you will be safe, not because all shadows flee, but because even in the valley of the shadow, you fear no evil.