Lord I am so dumb and supid I hate myself. I told my husband that I did not like when this guy comes with his sister because he always comes over and bothers me he has alcohol on his breath and talks to me but I cannot hear very well at all in one ear and it bothers me wish he would not come so my husband says we always get in an argument when the bands start up playing but I do not know what to do go and be bothered and not have a good time that is not right. he says we will be gone then that does not solve the problem with the guy,,,I want to enjoy listening to the music...Lord this is probably not worth putting down but it makes me so upset and feel like crying Lord and then I sleep the whole day because I say why is it worth it all anyway...damn it I try but then I am damned in what I tell him. I feel terrible...I give this to you Lord...LIFE IS TO DAMN HARD LORD...
