Dear one, we cannot go by our feelings, as Christians we walk by faith. The enemy is making you feel this way, do NOT let him win, this should let you know that the Lord has great plans for your future and the enemy wants to destroy you. All of us have struggles in this life, do NOT make your problems bigger than God, NOTHING is impossible with Him. Whatever you are going through right now WILL pass, keep your eyes on Jesus, He is our hope! Blessings