We come before you with heavy hearts, for we hear the deep anguish and torment in your words, and we recognize the spiritual battle raging within you. First, we must address the cries of your soul with truth and love, for what you have written reveals a heart in desperate need of God’s healing, deliverance, and redemption.
The pain you carry is real, and the bitterness you feel toward this person is a burden too heavy for you to bear alone. But we must speak the truth in love: the thoughts you have expressed—wishing death upon another, even in your pain—are not of God. The Bible tells us in 1 John 2:9-11, *"He who says he is in the light and hates his brother, is in the darkness even until now. He who loves his brother remains in the light, and there is no occasion for stumbling in him. But he who hates his brother is in the darkness, and walks in the darkness, and doesn’t know where he is going, because the darkness has blinded his eyes."* Hatred and curses do not align with the heart of Christ, who commanded us to love our enemies and pray for those who persecute us (Matthew 5:44). Vengeance belongs to the Lord alone (Romans 12:19), and He calls us to release our pain to Him, trusting in His justice and mercy.
Your words also reveal a deep spiritual oppression. The laughter you describe—hearing this person’s voice in a taunting, tumorous way—suggests an attack from the enemy, who seeks to steal, kill, and destroy (John 10:10). The fact that you wrote down Psalms yet are now twisted in such darkness tells us this is not a battle of flesh and blood, but a spiritual war (Ephesians 6:12). You need deliverance, and we stand with you in the authority of Jesus’ name to break every chain of bitterness, hatred, and torment.
Most urgently, we must address the cry for your life to end. Beloved, this is not God’s will for you. Jesus said in John 10:10, *"The thief only comes to steal, kill, and destroy. I came that they may have life, and may have it abundantly."* Satan wants to destroy you, but Jesus wants to give you life—true, abundant, eternal life. Suicide is a lie from the enemy, a permanent solution to a temporary pain that Jesus longs to heal. You are precious to God, fearfully and wonderfully made (Psalm 139:14), and He has a purpose for your life (Jeremiah 29:11). Your pain is valid, but your life is not yours to take—it belongs to the One who created you and redeemed you.
We also notice that while you invoke the name of Jesus, there is a contradiction in your words—asking for peace and progress while simultaneously harboring hatred and destruction. True peace comes from surrendering all to Christ, not from nursing bitterness. Jesus said in Matthew 11:28, *"Come to me, all you who labor and are heavily burdened, and I will give you rest."* He is calling you to lay down this burden at His feet.
Let us pray for you now with the power and authority of Jesus Christ:
Heavenly Father, we come before You in the mighty name of Jesus, lifting up this precious soul who is trapped in a storm of pain, bitterness, and spiritual oppression. Lord, we rebuke every spirit of hatred, vengeance, and death that has taken root in their heart. We break the power of every demonic voice that taunts and torments them, and we command these spirits to flee in the name of Jesus Christ. Father, fill every empty space in their heart with Your love, Your peace, and Your truth.
Lord, we ask for Your healing touch upon their mind and emotions. You see the wounds they carry—the betrayals, the hurts, the memories that haunt them. We ask You to bind up their broken heart (Psalm 147:3) and replace their pain with Your comfort. Remove the scales from their eyes so they may see this person—and themselves—through Your eyes. Help them to forgive, not for the sake of the one who hurt them, but for their own freedom. Unforgiveness is a poison that destroys the vessel that carries it, and we ask You to cleanse them of it completely.
Father, we stand against the spirit of suicide that has whispered lies to this beloved child of Yours. We declare that their life is precious to You, that You have plans for them—plans for hope and a future (Jeremiah 29:11). We speak life over them, abundant life in Christ Jesus. Break the power of despair and replace it with Your hope. Surround them with Your angels, Lord, and let them feel Your presence in a tangible way.
We also pray for the person they mentioned. Lord, we do not know the depths of what has transpired, but we ask that You would deal with them according to Your will. If they have sinned against this person, convict them and bring them to repentance. Soften their heart, Lord, and break any cycles of harm. But we also ask that You would remove any bitterness or root of hatred from our sister or brother’s heart. Help them to release this person to You, trusting that You will vindicate them in Your perfect timing.
Father, we ask for Your supernatural peace to guard their heart and mind in Christ Jesus (Philippians 4:7). Fill them with Your Holy Spirit, that they may walk in victory and not in bondage. Let them experience Your love in a way they never have before—so deeply that it casts out all fear, all hatred, and all despair.
In the name of Jesus, we bind every spirit of depression, oppression, and death. We loose the spirit of life, love, and freedom. We declare that no weapon formed against them shall prosper (Isaiah 54:17), and that the blood of Jesus covers them, protects them, and sets them free.
Lord, we ask that You would lead them to godly counsel—whether through a pastor, a Christian counselor, or a trusted believer who can walk with them through this valley. Do not let them remain isolated in their pain. Bring Your body around them, Father, that they may be strengthened and encouraged.
Finally, we pray that You would draw them closer to Yourself. Let them encounter You in a fresh, powerful way. Remind them that You are their refuge and strength, a very present help in trouble (Psalm 46:1). Turn their mourning into dancing (Psalm 30:11), and restore to them the joy of Your salvation (Psalm 51:12).
We thank You, Lord, for hearing our prayers. We trust in Your faithfulness to complete the work You have begun in them. May they find rest in You alone.
In the mighty and matchless name of Jesus Christ, our Lord and Savior, we pray. Amen.
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Beloved, we urge you to seek help immediately. The thoughts you are experiencing are not from God, and you do not have to face them alone. Reach out to a pastor, a Christian counselor, or a trusted believer who can pray with you and support you. If you are in immediate danger, please contact a crisis hotline or a mental health professional. You are not beyond hope—Jesus is your hope, and He is reaching out to you right now.
We also encourage you to meditate on God’s Word daily. Here are some verses to cling to:
- *"Cast all your anxieties on him, because he cares for you."* (1 Peter 5:7)
- *"The Lord is close to the brokenhearted, and saves those who are crushed in spirit."* (Psalm 34:18)
- *"For I am convinced that neither death, nor life, nor angels, nor principalities, nor things present, nor things to come, nor powers, nor height, nor depth, nor any other created thing, will be able to separate us from God’s love, which is in Christ Jesus our Lord."* (Romans 8:38-39)
You are loved. You are valued. And you are not beyond redemption. Jesus is waiting for you with open arms. Turn to Him now.
Prayer Focus: God, Thank You for loving me. God, I ask You in Jesus’ name please bless me with everything that I stand in need of and everything You want me to have. God bless me to prosper, walk in excellent health, and never stop growing in the love, grace, and knowledge of Christ Jesus. God bless me to know You in truth, fall in love with You with all my heart, mind, soul, body, and strength and never fall out of love with You. Bless me to have an ever growing closer stronger, more intimate relationship with You. Bless me with the love, desire, strength, and the spirit of obedience to always delight myself in You, seek first Your kingdom, Your righteousness, and to always respect and obey You. Bless me to trust You with all my heart, acknowledge You in all my ways, and lean not to my own understanding.
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