Dwsariator
Servant of All
Dear God thank you for letting me have a good few hours of sleep. I'm awake now laying in my bed drinking alcohol and I am doing this because I am an alcoholic and I want to take advantage of what little bit of time I have before I go back to work this morning to take on the huge amount of work that needs to be done correctly in a little bit of time. Yet because of my faith and belief in you there's a little person deep inside my body and my mine and my spirit that tells me that it's going to be ok. Yesterday I was having AWS with my mental instability. I hope that today I feel better and that I do not have shaking hands and that my forehead doesn't sweat. I am a tired old man and I have worked very hard for so many years to take care of my wife and our adult kid's and my mortgage and our bills and financial responsibilities. It's alot of work and sometimes I feel like I am in way over my head. It gives me stress and anxiety and I need your help and continued support to help me get through each and every day and night. I really want things to be good for my wife and our adult kid's and I also want good things for my bosses and my coworkers and my customers. Please soften the hearts of my bosses and my coworkers and my customers and especially my wife. Please help my wife and I treat each other with respect and to be nice to each other and to hopefully enjoy what little bit of time that we have left together. I may try to go back to sleep now and get a couple more hours of rest and to wake up and take a shower and get back to work on time and to learn how to input the information that my bosses want me to do as well as to be able to get my projects and proposals done correctly and on time. I would rather be able to stay home and lay in my bed and drink alcohol until I pass out and sleep for the rest of the day. Then to wake up and do it again. WOW. I am a alcoholic. Addicted to Jim beam and Sprite and beer. Thank God I don't smoke cigarettes or pot anymore. My lungs are still trying to recover from doing that for so long. Please help my wife with her AUD it's not as bad as mine. Please help my son with his Beer drinking and cigarette and pot smoking because I think that his lungs are going to be in trouble soon. Please help our daughter with her needs and to be able to marry her fiance and to be able to have children and raise a good family. I hope that I can help her and to be able to be around my grand kids someday. I am sorry for what I have done and for what I continue to do. I mean no disrespect to you I am just being very selfish. Well I woke up this morning and I got myself a BEER and a Jim beam. Shame on me. My bad. Alcohol is a tough little monster and having a free Will to do what ever I am able to do is a change for me right now but with your help we can make things better for my self and my wife and our adult kid's and my bosses and my coworkers and my customers to give honor and respect to your son Jesus Christ my lord and Savior. Amen

Prayer Focus: God, Thank You for loving me. Thank You for loving me, Jesus. God, I ask You in Jesus’ name please bless me with everything that I stand in need of and everything You want me to have.