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It took a little to sign on today but not as bad as yesterday. Some of you know a little about probs with my family, how my brother-in-law insults me, how much blatant favoritism of my younger sister. But things have escalated to the point, where I have to decide if I should break all ties with them. They don't love me. They have nothing but contempt and disrespect for me. I will never, never forget the cold, mean look in my father's eyes this past Tuesday when he told me to shut the ### up. I am not kidding. I did absolutely nothing to make him say that to me. That's the truth. I go to church with them every Sunday, come home after breakfast, and I am crying. A while back, my mother publicly insulted me at the diner we go to, to the point where she had me in tears right there. Then she and my father looked like they wanted to kill me because I cried. It is like if somebody is hitting you and you start to cry so they hit you harder. Sometimes the Tuesday dinners are wonderful, but sometimes is a big explosion from my mother or else a lot of insults. There is always this subtle air of contempt and blatant favoritism of my sister. We could tell the same funny story the exact same way, she gets standing ovation. I get ignored or at least cut into. It has been this way all my life. I ended up estranged from them for a long time. But I came back after my mother sent me pics from when I was a baby and stuff. I wanted a family so badly. I have tried and tried to be a good daughter, good sister, good aunt. But nothing I do is good enough, and I am like the family dog. NO respect or regard. I am heartbroken, just bleeding inside, bleeding. If I sever ties with my parents, there goes my sister who I love even though I know they only love her and not me, and there goes my two beautiful nephews. I will never see them. I don't understand why they don't love me. What did I ever do? Please pray for me.
