Adam283
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Dear Heavenly father god,
are you showing me my passion? did you unlock what is inside of me, i cant stop writing everything is flowing so clearly i have had so much in my life going on that i can write album after album of songs, show me what to do with them, i think ive snapped for the better, when i keep writing i cant be down, i know this new found strength is from you, you are unleashing all my soul has to offer and im done, each time something goes wrong it takes less time to stand back up, have i been kicked down so many time to learn to stand and just take the kick and move forward? im done falling, im planted firmly and i really dont see much else that can slam me so hard to make me fall, im sure it will happen and i will get up quicker than ever before but you have given me a strength i dont yet understand. You showed me how to take these wounds and mend them.
I no longer feel so weak by these blows, i wouldnt say hardened but at the same time yes. this has all came so fast and over and over non stop, more has happened in the last six months than i have experienced in a lifetime. you have kept alive when any normal person would have been dead easily, it wasnt fun but im still walking, like a parent lets a child touch the stove to learn, i have been arrested, woke up in the icu with doctors and nurses supprised i have made it, been torn apart time after time in relationships, went through finding out i was going to have a baby and then realizing i would never see it nor would it live, which i still hope you will move the heavens and earth to save,
I have been arrested over following towards the flesh and letting some girl get me in trouble after i was warned not to go. Which i go to court on thursday for. I found out I am being sent to Afghanistan to protect our country in June, and yet you give me strength and protect me, im suffering through a great drinking habbit which through your power will be broke, i no longer get depressed and feel the desire to drink, it doesn't help, you taught me how to care and to work hard for what i want, i know many others have it so much worse and i pray for them cause i know i have only been through a fraction of what others have. You kept me through thoughts of suicide, it felt at times you have let me hit the bottom but i see that at times you have to in order to be able to stand tall and be strong.
you have built compassion in me, build strength, gave me great knowledge, taught me to trust in myself, to be happy with you, i could go on forever but everything else there is just no words for. All of this has happened for a reason and you unlocked something, something great, lord show me what to do with it, show me what to show the world, I know these things have happened so i can show others, through lyrics or through just speaking. I see that no matter what is prayed when the heart desires it will fully come true, not always in the way that we may think but in the way that you desire. I pray for all those who have caused me pain,
i pray that Brittny does not make a choice she will regret, Send your angels from Heaven and earth to protect her and the baby. Warm her heart and make something wonderfull out of this, im not ready to give up on this yet. I will make everything work and be ok no matter what but i need your help my lord. I will marry this girl if it takes that cause i care for her a lot and the baby that is growing inside of her so much. i am at your mercy cause i can only work the most with the hand you deal with me but you know the cards that are given before i see.
In Jesus Name I Pray, Amen
are you showing me my passion? did you unlock what is inside of me, i cant stop writing everything is flowing so clearly i have had so much in my life going on that i can write album after album of songs, show me what to do with them, i think ive snapped for the better, when i keep writing i cant be down, i know this new found strength is from you, you are unleashing all my soul has to offer and im done, each time something goes wrong it takes less time to stand back up, have i been kicked down so many time to learn to stand and just take the kick and move forward? im done falling, im planted firmly and i really dont see much else that can slam me so hard to make me fall, im sure it will happen and i will get up quicker than ever before but you have given me a strength i dont yet understand. You showed me how to take these wounds and mend them.
I no longer feel so weak by these blows, i wouldnt say hardened but at the same time yes. this has all came so fast and over and over non stop, more has happened in the last six months than i have experienced in a lifetime. you have kept alive when any normal person would have been dead easily, it wasnt fun but im still walking, like a parent lets a child touch the stove to learn, i have been arrested, woke up in the icu with doctors and nurses supprised i have made it, been torn apart time after time in relationships, went through finding out i was going to have a baby and then realizing i would never see it nor would it live, which i still hope you will move the heavens and earth to save,
I have been arrested over following towards the flesh and letting some girl get me in trouble after i was warned not to go. Which i go to court on thursday for. I found out I am being sent to Afghanistan to protect our country in June, and yet you give me strength and protect me, im suffering through a great drinking habbit which through your power will be broke, i no longer get depressed and feel the desire to drink, it doesn't help, you taught me how to care and to work hard for what i want, i know many others have it so much worse and i pray for them cause i know i have only been through a fraction of what others have. You kept me through thoughts of suicide, it felt at times you have let me hit the bottom but i see that at times you have to in order to be able to stand tall and be strong.
you have built compassion in me, build strength, gave me great knowledge, taught me to trust in myself, to be happy with you, i could go on forever but everything else there is just no words for. All of this has happened for a reason and you unlocked something, something great, lord show me what to do with it, show me what to show the world, I know these things have happened so i can show others, through lyrics or through just speaking. I see that no matter what is prayed when the heart desires it will fully come true, not always in the way that we may think but in the way that you desire. I pray for all those who have caused me pain,
i pray that Brittny does not make a choice she will regret, Send your angels from Heaven and earth to protect her and the baby. Warm her heart and make something wonderfull out of this, im not ready to give up on this yet. I will make everything work and be ok no matter what but i need your help my lord. I will marry this girl if it takes that cause i care for her a lot and the baby that is growing inside of her so much. i am at your mercy cause i can only work the most with the hand you deal with me but you know the cards that are given before i see.
In Jesus Name I Pray, Amen
