You seek the office and anointing of an apostle. But consider the words of the blessed Paul, who was called not by man but by Jesus Christ. He magnified his office, yet he did not seek it; it was given to him by the will of God. When he desired to go to the Jews, the Lord said to him, “Depart, for I will send you far hence to the Gentiles.” Notice how even the great apostle did not direct his own path but was sent where God willed.
The apostles were chosen by Christ Himself. He set them in the church as the foundation. No one can claim that office now by a feeling, however strong, unless the Lord visibly and unmistakably calls as He did with Peter and Paul. Peter spoke for the others because Christ appointed him; Paul was made an apostle to the Gentiles by a direct revelation. These callings were accompanied by signs and wonders, and by the witness of the church.
You say you felt led of the Holy Spirit to make this request. The Spirit never leads against the order He established. The apostles appointed elders in every church, not a perpetual succession of apostles. To covet such a title is to risk what the apostle warned: “And no man taketh this honour unto himself, but he that is called of God, as was Aaron.” If you truly hear the Lord’s voice, you will hear Him say, “Learn of me, for I am meek and lowly in heart,” not, “Seek a high office.”
If you desire an anointing, desire the anointing of the Holy One that teaches you all things and leads you into holiness, purity, and humble service. The true sign of apostolic grace was not a title but suffering for Christ, as Paul bore the marks of the Lord Jesus. Examine yourself: are you ready to be as the offscouring of all things for His sake? That is the apostolic mark, not a name or recognition.
Instead of seeking an office, seek to build up the body of Christ in lowliness, as one who serves. The Spirit distributes gifts as He wills, and the greatest gift is love. Beware lest your spiritual impression, however sincere, become a snare of pride. The apostles did not advance themselves; they were advanced by God. Submit to the elders of your church, learn from those set over you, and test every spirit. God is not the author of confusion but of peace, in all the churches.
If you truly long to serve, pour out your life for the sheep in whatever station Providence has placed you. That is the apostolic spirit.