I'm Cursed!

[MissingJohnny]

If God is so wonderful and loving, how come all the Pagan things I did in my life were more permanent and every little blessing in my life that God gave me is temporary? 

I got got my rent paid yesterday, only for my breaks to go out on my car today. God knows that I'M FUCKED without my car, yet he allowed something expensive to go wrong with it anyway! (Yes, I cussed! Deal with it! Live my life one time and you will, too.) My car is sitting in the yard, there's no way  in HELL that I can get the car to be fixed, no way I can get the money to fix it, no way to take my boy to school (we live outside of the bus district), no way to get to work, no hope for anything. I have to crush the car. I'M SICK OF NOT BEING ABLE TO GET ANYWHERE! I would trade my soul for a good life on earth! That is how bad it is!

I just told my son that we can't have Christmas this year because God won't stop picking at us and torturing us with false hope and temporary blessings. I'm killing myself tonight. That's the only way to escape God's cruelty.

Ever since I left Paganism, I have almost been driven INSANE by God's cruelty and lack of fairness! And I just found out that Johnny is never coming home! I'm sick of this! I am so sick of this!

When and if you pray for this post...

Ask God this for me: Why were the blessings from the Pagan Gods more permanent and did not immediately bring curses? Why is it that the Pagan gods bless evenly and fairly? Why is it that there is more protection from evil and bad luck with Pagan gods?

In comparison, why are God's blessings scarce, temporary, and/or immediately followed by curses? 

I look forward to the brainwashed answers...

 

[ayomide agoro]

Every disappointment is a blessing for you. GOD has better things coming your way and he has a reason for everything he does everything for our own good 

 

[OcGirl19]

I have prayed for you. God cares for you more than you can ever imagine, just place your trust in Him no matter how deep your problems are, God can handle it all.

 

[MissingJohnny]

Every disappointment is a blessing for you. GOD has better things coming your way and he has a reason for everything he does everything for our own good 

Bullshit. I'm sick of hearing that. I just told my son that we can't have Christmas this year because God won't stop picking at us and torturing us with false hope and temporary blessings. I'm killing myself tonight. That's the only way to escape God's cruelty.

I have prayed for you. God cares for you more than you can ever imagine, just place your trust in Him no matter how deep your problems are, God can handle it all.

I'm sick of hearing that, too. Ever since I left Paganism, I've almost gone insane with God's lack of fairness. 

 

[Prayer boy]

I prayed for this. In Jesus Name. Amen.

 

[Prayer boy]

I prayed for this. In Jesus Name. Amen.

 

[PadresHoney]

Almighty God, the Father of mercies and God of all comfort, come to our help and deliver us from this difficulty that besets us. We believe Lord, that all trials of life are under Your care and that all things work for the good of those who love You. Take away from us our fear, anxiety, and distress. Help us to face and endure our difficulties with faith, courage, and wisdom. Grant that this trial may bring us closer to You, for You are our rock and refuge, our comfort and hope, our delight and joy. We trust in Your love and compassion. Blessed is Your name, Father, Son and Holy Spirit, now and forever. In Jesus name. Amen.

 

[MissingJohnny]

I'm so sick of everything! I am a truck driver but because of the restrictions on my license, I can barely find work, and the one person who was willing to train me ON THE JOB with no ridiculous contract, and paid training... The damn truck broke down last night! Tell me that wasn't God! Now, it could be two weeks before I get to even dream of work, and my babysitter has Strep... Then I saw a miracle yesterday about my rental situation, BUT IT WAS TEMPORARY BECAUSE THE RENT IS DUE AGAIN IN EIGHT DAYS! And then my car is no longer fit to drive... Today, the brakes just went out on my car on the driver side. It's over $100 to fix, I can't earn the money to fix it if I can't drive, so I'm going to call a junk it to come take it to the crusher. God knew that I would be FUCKED without my car. I'm AUTISTIC and was cursed by a late-in-life diagnosis. All I ever want is to work! But no... I am not allowed to be happy. I'm not allowed to be with the person I love. I'm not allowed to succeed in life. I just had to tell my son that we will not be having Christmas this year because God plays favorites. I'm being plagued and I'm tired of it. God won't stop plaguing me, so I'm just going to escape his cruelty in the only possible way... The way out. I was doing better as a Pagan. I've damn near gone insane from God's lack of fairness in the entire year that I have been a Christian. ENOUGH IS ENOUGH!

 

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