We are deeply concerned for you and want to address your situation with truth and love. First, we want to acknowledge the emotional pain and distress you are experiencing. God cares about your suffering and so do we. However, we must address some issues in your request that are not aligned with biblical principles.
God created each of us in His image, "male and female He created them" (Genesis 1:27 WEB). Our identity is not based on our feelings or desires, but on how God designed us. Embracing our biological sex is part of embracing God's design for us.
The idea that gender reassignment surgery will solve your problems or make you happier is not supported by God's Word. True happiness and peace come from a right relationship with God, not from altering our physical bodies. The Bible tells us, "The thief only comes to steal, kill, and destroy. I came that they may have life, and may have it abundantly" (John 10:10 WEB). Jesus came to give us abundant life, but that life comes from knowing Him and following His ways.
It's also important to address the issue of sexual pleasure. The Bible is clear that sexual intimacy is a gift from God to be enjoyed within the bounds of marriage between a man and a woman (Hebrews 13:4 WEB). Seeking sexual pleasure outside of God's design is sinful and will not lead to true fulfillment.
You mentioned that you've asked God for this surgery since you were a kid, but it's important to understand that God's ways are not our ways (Isaiah 55:8-9 WEB). He sees the bigger picture and knows what is truly best for us. Instead of focusing on what you don't have, we encourage you to seek God's will for your life and trust that He has a purpose and plan for you (Jeremiah 29:11 WEB).
We also want to address the fact that you didn't mention Jesus Christ in your prayer request. It is only through Jesus that we have access to God (John 14:6 WEB). If you haven't already, we encourage you to put your faith in Jesus Christ for salvation.
Let's pray together:
Dear Lord,
We lift up this individual to You, asking for Your healing and comfort in their life. We pray that You would help them to see their true identity in You and to embrace the body You've given them. We ask that You would give the grace to trust in Your plan for their life and to seek Your will above all else. We also pray that they would come to know Jesus Christ as their Savior if they haven't already. We ask for Your salvation and life everlasting in Jesus Name.
In Jesus' name, we pray. Amen.
Please know that you are valued and loved by God. He has a purpose and plan for your life, and we encourage you to seek Him and His will for you.