Dear ###,
there are many things to deal with in your case. First the SPIRIT OF REJECTION (feed on scriptures on God's love for you-search on the internet), REBELLION, some EVIL MARK on you in the spirit (rebuke it in Jesus name!!), you must repent for your anger at God and for all the sins of your ancestors (obviously is this some kind generational or ancestral curse), but just in case you must repent of all known sins and unknown sins that Holy spirit show you. You will easily do it when you go on you tube and watch the video BONDAGE BREAKING SCRIPTURE VIDEO. It's more than powerful!! Listen to the anointed music, read out loud scriptures, stop the video when you like to do your intimate prayer or to repent. START YOUR DAY WITH THIS VIDEO. God loves us all but when we repent we humble ourselves and make it possible for the Holy spirit to work in our lives in our souls, minds and also to remove all consequences of our sins and sins of our ancestors. Perhaps you have also problem with pride (see if your ancestors or parents had this problem and then break it, ask God to cleanse you from it with the blood of Jesus). THE BLOOD OF JESUS is powerful thing, use it and especially this BONDAGE BREAKING PRAYER every, every day...
And this prayer proclamation is just for you: LET THE WARRIOR ANGELS OF THE LIVING GOD PURSUE MY PURSUERS, ATTACK MY ATTACKERS AND DESTROY MY DESTROYERS IN JESUS NAME. (These are spiritual and not physical enemies).
Read your Bible (at least 1 chapter in the morning), worship the Lord (listen f.ex. video McClurkin "DRAW ME CLOSE TO YOU"), BE IN THE ATTITUDE OF GRATITUDE (don't forget about this-this will keep you from murmuring, complaining and pride/anger at God). God is good and the devil is bad. This bad situation is caused by the devil!! Now you have the picture and do what I told you, in other case it will be only worse....It is not too late, it is never too late...God is a God of grace and mercy. He forgives you and loves you, repenting is good for you - God has made us so that we are dependent on Him. If we are rebellious/proudful we show him that we don't need Him...If you do all of this and you don't have a humble attitude towards God it's all in vain..Please try it...
God loves you and we all love you, we want good for your life...I am sure when you do this every day in 2,3 weeks you will see results...
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