DomV
Disciple of Prayer
I pray for a better life. I can't take life anymore. I drag myself through my days on autopilot, without feeling any joy or seeing the point of anything. I have to force myself to get up every morning. I've spent years desperately praying for a relationship, and my heart aches when I see so many happy couples around me. I haven't achieved anything in my artistic career, and I simply don't know how to get ahead or what to do. I'm an underachiever, and I'm wasting my God-given talent. I'm only 24, but I don't remember a time when I wasn't depressed and suicidal. After 10 years of being bullied I'm completely broken. I want to heal and become whole, but whenever I make some progress, something devastating ruins everything. Next year things could potentially get easier, at least from a financial perspective, but I'm afraid that I'm already doomed. I've reached the lowest point of depression from where there's no way back. I know that I can't go on without a man's love. Only love would encourage me to carry on. God is so good to other people. I also want to be whole and happy. Why am I denied happiness?