nomalanga
Servant of All
Please pray for me. I no longer want to pray for anyone else. The more I pray, the more I encounter issues concerning relationships in my life, and the more confused I become, asking myself, "God, why is this happening to me? Am I not worthy? Am I not of much value in Christ? Why would you give me an ungodly man, knowing that he still loves ladies, sleeps with them, drinks, and goes to parties? These are the things of someone who is an unbeliever. I don't want this man, God. I know my worth and I deserve a man who is afraid of you, a godly man that we both will serve you. How can I/we serve you when I am and he is not? We cannot because he is still controlled by human nature, and I am controlled by the Holy Spirit. It's like water and oil; those two things do not mix. So, I and he do not mix. God, I just want to give up and stay alone forever, serving you, no matter what people will say or think. I no longer care about being with an unbeliever. You say that we should not engage ourselves with non-believers because they have nothing to teach us. All I ask, God, is to intervene in my relationships and let it be your will that is done upon my life, not by my own authority or knowledge, but let it be your will, God, that is done in my life as it is done in heaven. I said what is in my heart eating me up, in Jesus' Name, make your will in my life, God. Amen.
