The enemy of your soul doesn't want you to break free from the bondage of sin, so he will do whatever he can to discourage you in your efforts to draw near to God. There might be a strong spirit working against your freedom in the fear that when you break free you will become some one great who will be a threat to the kingdom of darkness. No matter his attempts to scare you off God I encourage you to press on towards God. See this phase as your darkest hour before the morning comes, your joy awaits you in the morning, all this you are going through will soon pass just stand your ground and focus on God not the circumstances arising against you. I am praying for you in Jesus'
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