happymom
Disciple of Prayer
I have so much feeling of hopelessness & despair I just need physical contact (not sexual) & an open line of communication so I can start to earn my ex. g.f. trust and respect back as she no longer has these for me or feels safe with me for good reasons but I am changing. I am in programs & counseling, I am doing it all for her b/c I love her & she does still love me; she said so. I need for the msgs. I send her to touch her heart, let the good memories of us flood back to her, let her be drawn to me again so that I can be trustworthy & respectful again in her eyes, let her see I am changing, and let her have a change of heart on her move, which will all but destroy any hopes of reconciliation; she said she was waiting on a date for the move not sure how true, if it was to hurt me or it is fact either way. I know I sound selfish but I don't want the date to happen & I hope the job offer falls through; I need to make things right with her; she is my world, I can feel it. This girl is very special & dear. I don't know what will happen to me if I lose her forever...I have lost my family, am on course to lose my home, my kids; I feel I have hit bottom with no where to go & no where to turn. Please help! I feel I need a miracle at this point; I also suffer from depression & am on medications. Please take away this fear, loneliness, pain, sadness, anxiety, & stress.
