Flobosire
Disciple of Prayer
I have been having issues in my union with the father of my kids. We got together in 2012 and had our first child in 2013 and another in 2015. He has always been insecure about me and constantly accused me of cheating. He'd get violent and beat me sometimes not forgetting the verbal and emotional abuse. I guess I lost control and actually cheated around late 2016. I found comfort and the love I craved with another man and it was wrong because he was in a relationship with someone else. I moved out and made some more wrong choices with other men and I really do regret it. We got back together in 2018 and still he was insecure. I did my best to be what he needed but it always felt like I was the only one making an effort. Always scared of his reaction about stuff seemed like I was walking on egg shells. I just wasn't happy though I was doing it for the kids. Soon we had another fight coz of his insecurities and again I moved out. He wasted no time and brought in another woman. He lies and manipulates situations to make me look guilty and I know that what I did was wrong even in God's eyes but I just wish he had tried to hear me and treat me different. Dad died without meeting him despite the fact that he called out to him towards his last days. That breaks my heart to this day. I just ask you to help pray for God to forgive me for all my sins and bring peace to my heart. And for the Jesus through the holy spirit to guide me and give me the strength to overcome the temptations I face. I pray for the knowledge to bring up my girls in a godly way and breakthrough in my career and hustles to bring food on the table. I pray for favor and forgiveness and blessings in my and my family's life.
