I Don't Want To Be A Porn Addict Anymore, Please I Need Prayer

[Brian12]

I am an 18 year old boy and I need prayer to help me to stop watching pornography... My father is a priest, and he knows and thought I stopped, but I am so ashamed to go back to my own dad over and over and over again and then the other priest I know is a physcolgist but I cannot go to him either, I don't want him to know. I will go on for weeks without ever looking at anything, I will be praying diligently everyday, but every time I fail and start back up again. I am disgusted with myself, I would trade this problem for any other problem if I could.. I hate this, I just want to be strong enough to never look at it again. Whenever I am with my female friends I just feel ashamed, and it is hard for me to look at them, for knowing what I have done so many times (they do not know, but I just hate looking at them because i know what I do), how can I look at them while degrading others so many times. Just please Pray for me. I haven't watched anything for the lat four days, I plan on not ever going back to it, I just need prayer.

I would rather be a drug addict or a alcoholic or smoker, I just HATE myself for always failing. And I want a girlfriend more than anything, but i cannot allow myself to go with a girl until I can stop degrading women altogether. If I were to get a girlfriend how can I look at her when I can barely look at myself. Please I need help, I hate feeling like this.

I feel so helpless and in despair.. this has been going on for 8 years since I was 10 years old, and not even once have I been able to stop longer than four months. And even if I could get a girlfriend, I wouldn't even deserve her because this sickness that I have.

I have thought of therapy to talk about this with, but I am just so ashamed that I can't possibly talk about it to a stranger either, and on the off chance that I get a female therapist there would be no way that i can look her in the eye and tell her about this problem.

I just don't feel strong anymore, I don't feel like a good christian anymore, how can I call myself a christian when i cannot stop this simple thing... Just please pray for me. I hate even typing this up on a prayer request forum when people on here have bigger problems than I do. I just don't know what to do anymore. just please pray for me that I can find the strenght I need to stop, and the strength I need to find help cause I don't think I can stop on my own. Just please pray for me.

 

[Articles]

May God hear your request and grant it according to his will. In Jesus Name, Amen.

 

[Action238]

Go to your dad....Lord let him learn this lesson and walk in the fullness of Truth in Jesus name

 

[bluebirds38]

dear lord i pray that you hear his plea and answer his prayer in jesus name amen

 

[babydoll]

Brian, Today Jesus says to you I came to set you free from the powers of addiction and shame and you are free Indeed! Lord, I commit this precious son Brian into your loving and most precious hands today. Lord, pronography destroys so many lives daily and corrupts the mind, but Brian's body, mind, soul and spirit belong to Jesus Christ, and whomever Jesus sets free is free inded!Brian, declare you are free and whenver you do feel ths temptation immediately play a worship CD and play it loud and start singing!Lord, we declare your power to be made manifest in his life today.Cleanse his mind Lord, his heart and his body and fill his mind with only good things.Whatever is pure, whatever is good, whatever is lovely let him from today think only on these things.Spirit of pornography in the name of Jesus i declare you destroyed and removed from this life.Brian is the blood bought property of Jesus Christ.Lord wash him clean in your blood as though he never sinned. He says he is a preacher's son Lord, and he is also your beloved Son.Use this son Lord to set other men free from this addiction remove the powers of darkenss form his mind, and replace them with visions of you and what you will do through him.I declare Brian a redeemed son of the most high God and I declare he will minister to your people using this addiction as his testimony,Brian you will never see any magazine any photo or any youtube video that is defiling or derogatory.Take up your bible instead and read the promises God has for you.for he tells you that he knows the plans he has for you.plans that are not to harm you but to give you hope and a future. God, i place his future and his every thought and action into your hands I commit this Son for your glory, use him at church to help other men who are battling in fear and shame.Touch this brother of mine right now Lord, let him feel your power flowing through himLet him laugh and rejoice that the Son of God has set this son of man free!Brian you are a child of God and you can go to him without shame.He has cleansed you, and he says you are precious you are mine and I love you.God bless you abundantly and may you honor Him in eveyr thought every word and every action you take from this day forward.Amen!

 

[flora]

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