The greatest boldness in prayer is perfectly consistent with the lowest self-humiliation. Every Christian, in proportion as he lives near to God, will feel this self-abasement, this lowliness of heart; and if others talk of admiring or of imitating him, he will say, "Look not upon me, for I am black." Yet what is this disquiet over the body but a sign that the soul has been looking too long in the mirror of the world? There is a great deal of self-abnegation which is not genuine; it is the offspring of self-conceit, and not of self-knowledge. Much that we say of ourselves would mightily offend our vainglory if anybody else said the same of us. Oh, let us beware of mock humility! The more watchful Christian is conscious of another danger: "they made me the keeper of the vineyards; but mine own vineyard have I not kept." Are you not weary with cutting what will only grow again, and fretting over a spot that will not be hidden by any shears of man? That is real religion which goes with us through all the acts of daily life, and if you cannot see a door of removal, accept what God has given, and accepting it from a Father's hand you will be able to serve Him with gladness.
Public services to some of you have grown dull, yet the preacher is the same; private prayer drags heavily. Here is the root: the outward appearance has swallowed up the inward communion. My friends, if we could have all the pleasures of the flesh we desire, I question whether they would be, in themselves, a profit; but of this I am certain, that compared with the loss of our soul, it would indeed be a dreadful loss. The soul is made in the image of its Maker; to lose it, how fearful! What will it matter in eternity whether the head was smooth or shaggy? I have lived a self-sacrificing life, says the Master, caring nothing for Myself or My own honor. In the course of His Providence, He has brought some of us very low by sickness, or by bereavement, or loss, and everyone saved by our Lord has come under the discipline of His house. If you say to sin, self and all else, "Be gone! My heart is for Christ alone," then the Truth is in you and shall be more and more fully apparent.
You know a person may be a long time a professor and not find out that he has deceived himself. They do not get the secret comfort of true religion and yet they have to keep up an appearance of it! But a real religion goes with us cheerfully under every trial. We mourn the loss of outward things, but we will not be disheartened if we see His work! Beloved, we should always serve the Lord with gladness, not because we think thereby to escape Hell or obtain Heaven, far from this! He knows that he is saved. Our Master deserves the best love, the warmest confidence, the most stern perseverance, the utmost self-denial, and that includes laying down the little idol of public approval. Let the hair be what it will; let the baldness speak of that excellent self-forgetfulness which finds its gladness not in the mirror, but in His image in the eyes of His saints. Everything about Him is gladness, and that is your portion, not the fretting over what is passing away.