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I dont know what to do now. IM going through a very tramatic experience and i didnt think it would be this hard. Last monday I got back in touch with someone that i reallly cared for that i havent talked to in 9 years but have had dreams about for 9 years and that has been in the back of my mind. She was my longest term girlfriend for 7 months. We were back in touch for a week and i had to say goodbye to her again. It was the right thing to do. I was getting along with her very well but it was also causing me alot of stress when days would go by without hearing from her. THere was a false alarm on her page that i got paranoid about where she was talking about dying. I made a 911 call. And i looked up family to try to get her address and found out things about her that made me very upset. Tell me if i did the right thing or not? I feel maybe i could have hung in with her more and been a listening and encouraging ear. It was going very very well between us after about a week and she sent me a nice email saying she wanted to know more about whats been going on in my life and out of the blue i sent her an abrupt email telling her she needs to stop-- Get help. Your aunt loves you very much. That stuff your doing has taken control of you and made you a different person. Now i am about to block you. Or something along those lines. THen the next morning i sent her an email from my cell phone explaining why i did what i did. I told her that she either takes that stuff and flushes it down the toilet or she will never see me ever again. I told her about my faith and that it was alright to cry out to GOd, which she used to believe in God along time ago but got invovled in the wrong crowd and walked away and got worse. Now the stuff she has been on i dont know if it is the same stuff but has been doing crystal meth 10 years ago when i knew her. NOw may be a very critical time and if she is still doing that her i feel it may be too late. Plus i may have needed to cut myself off from her early. Because if the pain is this bad now, imagine how bad it is gonna get later? THat could be very very dangerous to my soul. I told her i didnt wanna watch her die an early death and i was not gonna lose her again. I dont know. Do you think that was a little early to be doing that? and saying that to her? She did reply to me and tell me that i was scaring her and that she didnt know what i was talking about but i know that she is lying. Why would a family member a christian family member lie about those things? Anyway the night before when i was talking to her aunt on the phone she was warning me not to give her any money and i told her how good she did treat me in the past and her aunt was very shocked when i told her that and couldnt believe it. And one thing i didnt think of that i forgot to tell her that not once did she ask me for money ever. Please just ask God to give me peace about this to let me know that i did the best i could and made the best decision i could to the best of my ability. And i listened to my family and to hers that it was best to cut communication with her. And thats what i had to do. I didnt want this thing getting any worse. Now i may need to go to therapy. But i hope it doesnt have to come to that and God works out the situation better than expected. But i never in my life ever went through anything this tramatic and hard. I feel dissapointed that I may have led her on and that the things i talked about doing with her ill never get to share. IT was such an a mazing feeling when we were talking and now i may have messed that up for good. And its really really hard on me.
