IloveHayes&Dunns100
Good and Faithful Servant
The reason why I don't have faith or believe in God is because I've been dreaming for the last month, even with taking the medication, that I'm put back up in Indianapolis or people from there come down here that I don't want. I ask God to please not make me end up around or bring them around me and any of my relations, friends, or family. I've been dreaming that God breaks commandments and promises against me, like everything he has promised in his word, he doesn't do. He said you should not gossip and he speaks against meddling, but he does those things in dreams. I have dreams where, if it's not in a day, a year, 10 years, or even 50 to 70 years, God gives people my info that will do me and my relations wrong, and they come around. I also have dreams where I don't see or hear a sound or a peek from any of my relations for 10+ years to forever, or they're here today or her today for a second and disappear out of my life forever. I've had dreams where relations put their attitudes, tempers, grief, stress, problems, anger, and jealousy against me and each other, or just me or one or two or whoever of the others, when none of us deserve any of this from God at all. I've been dreaming that God does the extreme complete opposite on me with everything I ask for help with, like ending my nightmares and the terrors of the night. I've had dreams where you put me somewhere or offer me to go somewhere where I would never wish to be. There was one night where I dreamt we were up by Janus, and I dreamt that dream multiple times, and after a few times, you were like, "Ahh, ###, yes, you will be coming here going there for a very long time." People in dreams were talking fake to me, and I dreamt about doppelgangers for the first time in a long time. I still dream that ###, ###, ###, and ###, but even by ### and other relations of theirs come back from the dead and catch up with the others that are still alive and around, and they'll treat me with illumination. ### and ### are included, that's why I don't believe, trust, or have faith in God anymore. He's treating me like he's my enemy and going against everything, especially when I need help that no human but he can do, and making his commandments and promises look like lies against and on me by going against me with them in dreams and forcing people that none of my relations or I don't or wouldn't want on or around us. That's why I'm mad and angry with God. He seems to punish me even when I do good deeds; it's like, "OK," and revealed my privacy of things I don't want others or just certain people to know. That's why I'm mad and angry with God. He's not treating me right or good or helping me get better. He's been doing me wrong instead, like when he said, "I will help in time of lack or in time of need or in family problems or in trouble or whatever," and when he said, "Don't worry, I'll go out on your behalf." That's all a complete fib and lie to my face and in my life, and there are all kinds of promises and stuff he said. He made a fib and a lie against me, and oh, I also have dreams when God lets people get away doing me wrong by doing sins in the Bible, and he said, "You shall not do this." He shows me he didn't appreciate me as a believer or a faithful servant or follower or a Christian or trying my hardest to please him. He shows me how ungrateful he was, and I was trying to strive to do the right thing along the side of fighting for my free will, freedom, and rights. This is how God treats me. Is that how he does all of his people, making them feel forever punished, enslaved, and trapped in so many ways for life and let be forced and pushed around that don't show me he cares or that he's a God of love? I see extreme hate, but let me know what you need if you need anything, but yeah, that's what's going on, and that's why I've been upset a lot lately. Let me know if you need anything (but yeah, it's all this grief, meddling, nightmares, and being pushed around that's been getting me upset). And I feel like God gave up on me completely, first wanting to treat me right and do me good and bless me because that's what it seems like. Love, you don't forget to let me know if you need anything. But yeah, that's what's going on, and that's why I've been upset a lot lately. Let me know if you need anything (but yeah, it's all this grief, meddling, nightmares, and being pushed around that's been getting me upset). And I feel like God gave up on me completely, first wanting to treat me right and do me good and bless me because that's what it seems like. Love, you don't forget to let me know if you need anything. But yeah, that's what's going on, and that's why I've been upset a lot lately. Let me know if you need anything (but yeah, it's all this grief, meddling, nightmares, and being pushed around that's been getting me upset). And I feel like God gave up on me completely, first wanting to treat me right and do me good and bless me because that's what it seems like. Love, you don't forget to let me know if you need anything. But yeah, that's what's going on, and that's why I've been upset a lot lately. Let me know if you need anything (but yeah, it's all this grief, meddling, nightmares, and being pushed around that's been getting me upset). And I feel like God gave up on me completely, first wanting to treat me right and do me good and bless me because that's what it seems like. Love, you don't forget to let me know if you need anything. But yeah, that's what's going on, and that's why I've been upset a lot lately. Let me know if you need anything (but yeah, it's all this grief, meddling, nightmares, and being pushed around that's been getting me upset). And I feel like God gave up on me completely, first wanting to treat me right and do me good and bless me because that's what it seems like. Love, you don't forget to let me know if you need anything. But yeah, that's what's going on, and that's why I've been upset a lot lately. Let me know if you need anything (but yeah, it's all this grief, meddling, nightmares, and being pushed around that's been getting me upset). And I feel like God gave up on me completely, first wanting to treat me right and do me good and bless me because that's what it seems like. Love, you don't forget to let me know if you need anything. But yeah, that's what's going on, and that's why I've been upset a lot lately. Let me know if you need anything (but yeah, it's all this grief, meddling, nightmares, and being pushed around that's been getting me upset). And I feel like God gave up on me completely, first wanting to treat me right and do me good and bless me because that's what it seems like. Love, you don't forget to let me know if you need anything. But yeah, that's what's going on, and that's why I've been upset a lot lately. Let me know if you need anything (but yeah, it's all this grief, meddling, nightmares, and being pushed around that's been getting me upset). And I feel like God gave up on me completely, first wanting to treat me right and do me good and bless me because that's what it seems like. Love, you don't forget to let me know if you need anything. But yeah, that's what's going on, and that's why I've been upset a lot lately. Let me know if you need anything (but yeah, it's all this grief, meddling, nightmares, and being pushed around that's been getting me upset). And I feel like God gave up on me completely, first wanting to treat me right and do me good and bless me because that's what it seems like. Love, you don't forget to let me know if you need anything. But yeah, that's what's going on, and that's why I've been upset a lot lately. Let me know if you need anything (but yeah, it's all this grief, meddling, nightmares, and being pushed around that's been getting me upset). And I feel like God gave up on me completely, first wanting to treat me right and do me good and bless me because that's what it seems like. Love, you don't forget to let me know if you need anything. But yeah, that's what's going on, and that's why I've been upset a lot lately. Let me know if you need anything (but yeah, it's all this grief, meddling, nightmares, and being pushed around that's been getting me upset). And I feel like God gave up on me completely, first wanting to treat me right and do me good and bless me because that's what it seems like. Love, you don't forget to let me know if you need anything. But yeah, that's what's going on, and that's why I've been upset a lot lately. Let me know if you need anything (but yeah, it's all this grief, meddling, nightmares, and being pushed around that's been getting me upset). And I feel like God gave up on me completely, first wanting to treat me right and do me good and bless me because that's what it seems like. Love, you don't forget to let me know if you need anything. But yeah, that's what's going on, and that's why I've been upset a lot lately. Let me know if you need anything (but yeah, it's all this grief, meddling, nightmares, and being pushed around that's been getting me upset). And I feel like God gave up on me completely, first wanting to treat me right and do me good and bless me because that's what it seems like. Love, you don't forget to let me know if you need anything. But yeah, that's what's going on, and that's why I've been upset a lot lately. Let me know if you need anything (but yeah, it's all this grief, meddling, nightmares, and being pushed around that's been getting me upset). And I feel like God gave up on me completely, first wanting to treat me right and do me good and bless me because that's what it seems like. Love, you don't forget to let me know if you need anything. But yeah, that's what's going on, and that's why I've been upset a lot lately. Let me know if you need anything (but yeah, it's all this grief, meddling, nightmares, and being pushed around that's been getting me upset). And I feel like God gave up on me completely, first wanting to treat me right and do me good and bless me because that's what it seems like. Love, you don't forget to let me know if you need anything. But yeah, that's what's going on, and that's why I've been upset a lot lately. Let me know if you need anything (but yeah, it's all this grief, meddling, nightmares, and being pushed around that's been getting me upset). And I feel like God gave up on me completely, first wanting to treat me right and do me good and bless me because that's what it seems like. Love, you don't forget to let me know if you need anything. But yeah, that's what's going on, and that's why I've been upset a lot lately. Let me know if you need anything (but yeah, it's all this grief, meddling, nightmares, and being pushed around that's been getting me upset). And I feel like God gave up on me completely, first wanting to treat me right and do me good and bless me because that's what it seems like. You can definitely say I hate God. My disbelief is now at negative 550. --550. God can forget me ever wanting to go to him since he wants to do me wrong like I literally dreamt ### and them and ### and ### appeared around me of course, and everybody worked together to do me wrong like I have asked to not happen so many times, and I had had like 30+ of these nightmares in so many versions. No, I hadn't forgotten, so no, I'm not putting faith, trust, love, to someone or something that's going to do me completely wrong. So yeah, you can definitely say I hate God.

Prayer Focus: God, Thank You for loving me. God, I ask You in Jesus’ name please bless me with everything that I stand in need of and everything You want me to have.