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I am ### years old and I have a really soft heart. I met this guy when I was ### years old and from the first time I met him I fell in love with him. We have broken up a couple times and every time I pray that if it is in God's will let us get back together and he always calls me back and we end up back together. But every time we would break up it was always something that went wrong in the relationship and just recently he broke up with me again but it is different this time. Well about a month ago he got a job with a Jehovah Witness and his beliefs started to change but he didn't change into a Jehovah Witness. And we had some disagreements about the beliefs and his boss didn't like that too much. I feel like his boss had a lot to do with the break up. After about a week he started to say that God talks to him. He said that he asked God to give him a sign that he was supposed to marry me and said that God did give him a sign and that God had told him I was withchild. When we found out that I wasn't pregnant his feelings changed towards me. And just two weeks ago he broke up with me and said that it isn't in God's will that we are meant to be together. And that is how it is different this time. We could fix the negative things in the relationship but I can't change God's will or his belief that it isn't in God's will that we are not meant to be. In my heart I don't believe that it is truly over. I pray every day that if it is in God's will that we are meant to be that we get back together. We live together but even though he doesn't want to be with me he doesn't want me to leave but wants me to be in a separate bedroom and I respect that. But I am just so depressed because I love him sooo much and he is going to keep believing that it isn't in God's will that we are meant to be just because I wasn't pregnant. But what he doesn't realize is that we don't need a child right now. I don't have a job right now and we can barely support ourselves. We had to go yesterday to the crisis ministries to get help with the power bill because they were going to cut it off yesterday if we didn't do something to pay it. Thanks be to God it got paid and we still have power. (God is good). So it maybe meant for us to be together but not to have a child right now because of our situation. And God sees that we couldn't support a child so it maybe a blessing that we don't have a child right now. Please pray for God to convict his heart. I hope God is the one telling me that it isn't truly over instead of my head because that is what I want. Please pray for me and my family because my mom is really worried about me because of my situation. She wants me to be happy and I call her every single day crying because of this situation. I have even prayed that God would call my name and he hasn't answered but I know that is because he has better plans. And I am hoping the plans are that we get back together. I need all the prayer and friends I can get. I have my e-mail address so that if you have time that hopefully you will contact me. I need so many good people in my life right now. Please. Thank you.
