You claim God has treated you inhumanely. My friend, how has God mistreated you or treated you inhumanely? If this is about your prayers, I already told you why God says no at times. I will say this, God is neither sadistic, vindictive, or cruel. I justify the actions of God simply because I know that God is love, and that He only has our best interests at heart. I told you before, we don't always understand or comprehend the mind of God, we may not always understand His will, we may not always understand why God choosing to do something, but we don't need to. All we need know is that God has our best interests at heart. God is in control, and no matter what happens, no matter what comes our way, we know that God will help us and that He will be with us, till the end. You say He is without compassion, but He forgave your sins and has offered you eternal life and salvation from damnation.
But with this you justify him letting me sit in this situation without even telling me why and how long more I have to sit like that.
Yes, God could answer your prayers even if you don't believe, but He will not.
And that's the whole issue : in my self I dont have strength to believe aymore because I have received so many disappointments already. But since I dont have that strength or abiity in myself anymore, He wont answer my prayers to receive it either. So there is no way out. Whether it's my fault or not, it doesnt matter, in either case there is no way out.
A common mistake among Christians is to think that the longer they pray the more powerful their prayer will be. My friend, it doesn't matter if you pray for 5 seconds or 5 hours. What matters is how much you believe. If you pray to God for salvation, believing in your heart that He died for your salvation, then you are saved. If you pray without believing, it doesn't matter how much you pray, you will not be saved. Why? Because you do not believe. Salvation is more then just a few mere words, in order to accept God's free gift of salvation, you need to believe.
No my point was not abut praying long enough or not. What I wanted to point out was that I did pray about my situation and few minutes after I had finished my payer I ended up being back where I am now.
Again my friend, if you do not believe, how can you expect to receive? If you have no faith, how can you expect a miracle?
And that's the whole issue. I have already seen so many disappointments that I dont have strength to believe anymore. I wish I could but I cant. And with out believing God wont help me. You have to stop blaming me for things which I am not able to change on my own. The whole point is that you have to understand that I am at the point where there is no way out. I am not God, therefore I dont have infinite faith. I am human, and my abilities arr limited. I am not all powerful. I cannot change my situation just by thinking/wishing it to change. I dont have that power that when I think of something it would happen like it is with God. You have to understand that right now coming out of my situation requires more faith that I have at the moment. But because of me not being able to believe enough, God would not give me that faith either. So you have to understand that there is no way out, and stop putting on my shoulders yoke that I am not able to carry.
Either you trust in God or you don't. That is your choice and your choice alone to make. Nobody can make it for you. As I already said multiple times, it is not always easy to trust, it is not always easy to have faith. During those times you must simply pray and hold on to your faith, because you know that God is in control, and you know that prayer changes things.
You admitted yourself that it's not always easy to trust and have faith. You said that i this case I need to pray to be able to hold faith. Now if the prayer to have faith or to be able to hold faith is answered with no, then how am I supposed to hold it with my own strength? If I as a human have limited amount of faith, and I start to run out of it and God is not giving me additional faith to be able to survive that what am I supposed to do. You dont seem to have ability to understand my situation.
You know because the Bible tells you so. God knows us all by name, the Bible even says that the very hairs of your head are all numbered. Never doubt, my friend, you are special and important to God. God has a purpose and a plan for your life, but it is your choice to follow God or go your own way.
Yes, bible too. But my point was that at best I can only read about His love. Whether it's people on this site or Bible, it doesnt make the difference. The fact is that from the bible or posts here I can only read about the love. I cannot receive the love. I cannot see the deeds done my God to me in love. If God really loves me then why doesnt His deeds show that? Why only bible tells about it but His deeds not showing that?
Why do you have faith in black magic and not in God?
Because 1) God has not shown me his love in deeds, but only in words, but magic dont care about loving me, they would do my request anyway, just because the ritual has performed and the energy has been sent on it's way 2) Prayers depend on will of God, and you never know what's his will, in magic, you use your own energy, energy of stones and so on which starts to do things immediately with out caring what God thinks of it. God can answer prayers with later because He sees that after that many years I would meet better person to my wife than I would right now. Demons from the other hand are happy with what I offer to them in return and take and offer me the first match even if it's not perfect one, because if they answer my request fast, I get back to them with new "deal" fast. Magic doesnt waste it's time so much on whether I believe or not or whether something better could come later or whether it's the will of God. It just does what is asked and that's it. To prove that, there are enough stories where teenagers try to summon demon in party, with out any firm belief in these things and just do the ritual for fun to see what happens, and then the demon appears.
It's like taking over Jericho - people could either wait for 7 days till God destroys it or if people at that tine knew how to make nuclear bomb they could have carried nuclear bomb to city gates on first day, and destroyed the independently from God's plan.