I am so fed up with God, that I would like to turn###

[Anonymous]

I already said, I cannot answer that question. Only God can answer your question. As I said in the beginning, I cannot answer all your questions, I do not have all the answers. But there is someone who does have the answers, there is someone who can answer all your questions. And His name is Jesus Christ, the Son of God.

But do you agree that it's not nice of him to let me be like that? Right now you seem to justify inhumane, compassionless, intentional torture.

To a point, yes. If you ask God for a car, but have no faith that He will do it, how can you expect God to answer your prayer? Just as you must ask to receive, you must also have faith when you pray. Prayer without faith is just hot air, worthless. Just like faith without actions is dead, prayer without faith is dead also. In order to receive, you need to believe. The Bible is very clear on that. "But let him ask in faith, nothing wavering. For he that wavereth is like a wave of the sea driven with the wind and tossed. For let not that man think that he shall receive any thing of the Lord." (James 1:6-7)

I agree with you. Technically he could answer it - I could pray in disbelief, and then take a car lottery ticket, and God could still change things so that my ticket would be winning. But I think the issue is more that He isn't willing to do that. I have the same words to God: if faith without actions is dead, then also His love without actions is dead. But well the main problem is that without faith I should not expect my prayers to be answered. Without prayer answered, I won't be able to be convinced that he loves/cares of me. Without having conviction that he cares of me, it's hard to find motivation and desire to read the Bible and to obey His words. But because of that God is even less willing to answer me. And then I wait for even longer time without seeing an answer to my prayer. And as a result of additional waiting my disappointment grows even bigger. And the things keep escalating with no hope, because unless God does something I won't be able to come out of it with my own strength, but God won't give me strength either. Therefore it's completely hopeless and the best option for me is to die as soon as possible.

That is NOT God's will for your life, and I think you know it.

What makes you think that?

all you need do is ask. It is not God's will that any should perish. What is God's will for your life?

I asked for it yesterday to see what happens. Didn't have the strength to stay like that for over 5 minutes. I figured that there is no point to try if I could only stay Christian for 5 minutes. It would be more honest of me to wait till something happens and then ask again when I have strength to stay Christian permanently.

Second, you are important.

I don't see this..

But with God's help you can overcome depression.

I agree with you. With God's help. And only with God's help. Not with my own strength but if God chooses to give me strength. He hasn't given me strength so far, so there is no point to hope that He would give me strength in any future. I think the best option is just to take my prayer requests to a professional spell caster and then die as a non-Christian and burn in hell or commit suicide right away if that fails.

We have the choice then to either overcome our doubts, casting all our worries, doubts, concerns, and troubles on God.

But you can't cast your cares on someone in whose trustworthiness you are not sure. I am not really sure if God exists at all and that in case He exists He really cares and not leave me without help when I need Him it's difficult to believe. And the slightest doubt will be punished receiving no help at all. And receiving no help at all makes it even harder to trust Him.

you are special and precious to God.

But if it is really so then why the only source I get to know this is this prayer site? Why doesn't God himself show that by His deeds? And by the way black magic also needs faith. Since I have not tried it so much that I could confidently say that it doesn't work, it's easier to believe in that than in God. So why not buy crystals and stones already that relieve depression? Why bother God for whom I don't have enough faith. If I could get help from crystals or spells then I could also be ready to trust God again. You see - why ask God for something He is not capable of doing. What if the only possible way is to heal me through spells and then when I am healed return to God? But then if spells heal me and God doesn't then why would I return to God at all? Then why not just stay with magic. I think I need help from someone else than God, and once I get over I need to stay as far away from God as possible because that would be the only way not to fall back into depression.

 

[Newbie]

...

But do you agree that it's not nice of him to let me be like that? Right now you seem to justify inhumane, compassionless, intentional torture.

You claim God has treated you inhumanely. My friend, how has God mistreated you or treated you inhumanely? If this is about your prayers, I already told you why God says no at times. I will say this, God is neither sadistic, vindictive, or cruel. I justify the actions of God simply because I know that God is love, and that He only has our best interests at heart. I told you before, we don't always understand or comprehend the mind of God, we may not always understand His will, we may not always understand why God choosing to do something, but we don't need to. All we need know is that God has our best interests at heart. God is in control, and no matter what happens, no matter what comes our way, we know that God will help us and that He will be with us, till the end. You say He is without compassion, but He forgave your sins and has offered you eternal life and salvation from damnation.

I agree with you. Technically he could answer it - I could pray in disbelief, and then take car lottery ticket, and God could still change things so that my ticket would be wining. But I think the issue is more that He isnt willing to do that. I have same words to God: if faith with out actions is dead, then also His love with out actions is dead. But well the main problem is that with out faith I should not expect my prayers to be answered. With out prayer answered, I wont be able to be convinced that he loves/cares of me. With out having conviction that he cares of me, it's hard to find motivation and desire to read the bible and to obey His words. But because of that God is even less willing to answer me. And then I wait for even longer time with out seeing answer to my prayer. And as a result of additional waiting my disappointment grows even bigger. And the things keep escalating with no hope, because unless God does something I wont be able to come out of it with my own strength, but God wont give me strength either. Therefore it's completely hopeless and the best option for me is to die as soon as possible.

God has given you many things, is it His fault that you place no value in the gifts He has given you? Is it His fault that you refuse to accept His love? Is it His fault that you reject His forgiveness? Is it His fault that you have rejected the forgiveness and salvation that He has offered you?

Yes, God could answer your prayers even if you don't believe, but He will not. The Bible is very clear on that. As I said before, there is a difference between what God can do and what God will do. He has more then proved His love for us by forgiving our sins and saving us from damnation. Now, I do not know about your personal situation, and I do not need to know. That is between you and God. Faith is believing without seeing, without evidence. I told you this before, faith defies logic, faith isn't fact, faith is the belief in something or someone without being able to prove it. If you were able to prove the existence of God it wouldn't be faith, it would be fact. The same is for prayer. We cannot prove that God will answer, but we believe and we know that God will answer, because He said so. That, my friend, is faith.

You say you have no faith, and you blame God for that. I say you have no faith, not because God wills it, but because you have refused to do what is necessary to have faith. The problem isn't God's lack of willingness, but rather your lack of willingness. My friend, the Bible clearly states that without faith it is impossible to please God. It also says that in order to have faith you must read and study God's word. But if you refuse to read God's word, you will have no faith. And with no faith you cannot hope to please God. So once again, the ball is in your corner. What will you chose to do?

I asked for it yesterday to see what happens. Didn't have strength to stay like that for over 5 minutes. I figured that there is no point to try if I could only stay Christian for 5 minutes. It would be more honest of me to wait till something happens and and then ask again when I have strength to stay Christian permanently.

A common mistake among Christians is to think that the longer they pray the more powerful their prayer will be. My friend, it doesn't matter if you pray for 5 seconds or 5 hours. What matters is how much you believe. If you pray to God for salvation, believing in your heart that He died for your salvation, then you are saved. If you pray without believing, it doesn't matter how much you pray, you will not be saved. Why? Because you do not believe. Salvation is more then just a few mere words, in order to accept God's free gift of salvation, you need to believe.

I dont see this..

You are important to God. He created you, my friend. The Bible says that before we are born, He loves us. God has a plan for you, if you choose to follow it. I know you are important to God because the Bible says you are important to God. God created you in His own image (Genesis 1:27) He loves you. Just because He loves everyone does not make His love any less personal and precious.

The Bible says, "Are not two sparrows sold for a farthing? and one of them shall not fall on the ground without your Father. But the very hairs of your head are all numbered. Fear ye not therefore, ye are of more value than many sparrows." (Matthew 10:29-31) You are valuable and important to God.

I agree with you. With God's help. And only with God's help. Not with my own strength but if God chooses to give me strength. He hasn't given me strength so far, so there is no point to hope that He would give me strength in any future.

Again my friend, if you do not believe, how can you expect to receive? If you have no faith, how can you expect a miracle?

But you can't cast your cares on someone in whose trustworthiness you are not sure. I am not really sure if God exists at all and that in case He exists He really cares and not leave me without help when I need Him it's difficult to believe. And the slightest doubt will be punished receiving no help at all. And receiving no help at all makes it even harder to trust Him.

Either you trust in God or you don't. That is your choice and your choice alone to make. Nobody can make it for you. As I already said multiple times, it is not always easy to trust, it is not always easy to have faith. During those times you must simply pray and hold on to your faith, because you know that God is in control, and you know that prayer changes things. Now, if you have no faith, if you do not trust in God, how can you expect a miracle? Again, you either choose to believe or you don't. If you are unsure about whether you believe in God then ask Him to prove Himself to you. If you don't believe in God, then you have no faith, and with no faith it is impossible to please God. Now, first you need to decide whether or not you believe in God, then you must decide whether or not you trust Him, and then you must read and study His word, not because I told you to, but because you want to learn more about God and you want your faith in God to grow.

You asked before why I believe in Christianity. The answer is simple, of all the various faiths and religions that I know of, only Christianity is based on love. All others, at least to my knowledge, are based on rules and laws. Christianity is the only religion that has the love of God and your fellow man as its core beliefs. Jesus said that if you love God and your fellow man, you will be obeying all the laws and all the prophets.

Christianity has three major rules/beliefs:

1. Love God with all your heart, mind, and soul
2. Love your neighbour (fellow man), as yourself
3. Tell all you meet about the love of God

That is all that is required from us as Christians according to the Bible. As you see, love is the central core belief. God is love and love is the basis of Christianity. You complained that it is difficult at times to believe. My friend, God never promised an easy life, or a life filled with comforts. Most Christians I think, have doubted at one time or another, but they when they persevere, God honours their faith. Remember the poem, Footprints in the Sand? Where he complains that during the most difficult trying periods of his life there was only one set of footprints in the sand? And God replied, "My child, that is when I carried you." My friend, God is nearest to us during these trying and difficult times. God is near to the broken hearted. My friend, God has promised that one day He will wipe away all our tears and our suffering will be no more. He will more then repay you for your sacrifices. That, my friend, is the love of God. His love is divine, it is beyond our comprehension. God's love is pure, it is endless and without pre-conditions.

But if it is really so then why the only source I get to know this is this prayer site? Why doesn't God himself show that by His deeds?

You know because the Bible tells you so. God knows us all by name, the Bible even says that the very hairs of your head are all numbered. Never doubt, my friend, you are special and important to God. God has a purpose and a plan for your life, but it is your choice to follow God or go your own way.

And by the way black magic also needs faith.

Why do you have faith in black magic and not in God?

What if the only possible way is to heal me through spells and then when I am healed return to God?

It doesn't work that way. You cannot serve two masters, my friend. God is a jealous God and will have no other false gods before Him. (Exodus 20:5)

I am praying for you, my friend.

 

[Anonymous]

You claim God has treated you inhumanely. My friend, how has God mistreated you or treated you inhumanely? If this is about your prayers, I already told you why God says no at times. I will say this, God is neither sadistic, vindictive, or cruel. I justify the actions of God simply because I know that God is love, and that He only has our best interests at heart. I told you before, we don't always understand or comprehend the mind of God, we may not always understand His will, we may not always understand why God choosing to do something, but we don't need to. All we need know is that God has our best interests at heart. God is in control, and no matter what happens, no matter what comes our way, we know that God will help us and that He will be with us, till the end. You say He is without compassion, but He forgave your sins and has offered you eternal life and salvation from damnation.

But with this you justify him letting me sit in this situation without even telling me why and how long more I have to sit like that.

Yes, God could answer your prayers even if you don't believe, but He will not.

And that's the whole issue: in my self I don't have strength to believe anymore because I have received so many disappointments already. But since I don't have that strength or ability in myself anymore, He won't answer my prayers to receive it either. So there is no way out. Whether it's my fault or not, it doesn't matter, in either case there is no way out.

A common mistake among Christians is to think that the longer they pray the more powerful their prayer will be. My friend, it doesn't matter if you pray for 5 seconds or 5 hours. What matters is how much you believe. If you pray to God for salvation, believing in your heart that He died for your salvation, then you are saved. If you pray without believing, it doesn't matter how much you pray, you will not be saved. Why? Because you do not believe. Salvation is more than just a few mere words, in order to accept God's free gift of salvation, you need to believe.

No, my point was not about praying long enough or not. What I wanted to point out was that I did pray about my situation and a few minutes after I had finished my prayer I ended up being back where I am now.

Again my friend, if you do not believe, how can you expect to receive? If you have no faith, how can you expect a miracle?

And that's the whole issue. I have already seen so many disappointments that I don't have strength to believe anymore. I wish I could but I can't. And without believing God won't help me. You have to stop blaming me for things which I am not able to change on my own. The whole point is that you have to understand that I am at the point where there is no way out. I am not God, therefore I don't have infinite faith. I am human, and my abilities are limited. I am not all-powerful. I cannot change my situation just by thinking/wishing it to change. I don't have that power that when I think of something it would happen like it is with God. You have to understand that right now coming out of my situation requires more faith than I have at the moment. But because of me not being able to believe enough, God would not give me that faith either. So you have to understand that there is no way out, and stop putting on my shoulders a yoke that I am not able to carry.

Either you trust in God or you don't. That is your choice and your choice alone to make. Nobody can make it for you. As I already said multiple times, it is not always easy to trust, it is not always easy to have faith. During those times you must simply pray and hold on to your faith, because you know that God is in control, and you know that prayer changes things.

You admitted yourself that it's not always easy to trust and have faith. You said that in this case I need to pray to be able to hold faith. Now if the prayer to have faith or to be able to hold faith is answered with no, then how am I supposed to hold it with my own strength? If I as a human have a limited amount of faith, and I start to run out of it and God is not giving me additional faith to be able to survive that, what am I supposed to do. You don't seem to have the ability to understand my situation.

You know because the Bible tells you so. God knows us all by name, the Bible even says that the very hairs of your head are all numbered. Never doubt, my friend, you are special and important to God. God has a purpose and a plan for your life, but it is your choice to follow God or go your own way.

Yes, the Bible too. But my point was that at best I can only read about His love. Whether it's people on this site or the Bible, it doesn't make the difference. The fact is that from the Bible or posts here I can only read about the love. I cannot receive the love. I cannot see the deeds done by God to me in love. If God really loves me then why doesn't His deeds show that? Why only the Bible tells about it but His deeds not showing that?

Why do you have faith in black magic and not in God?

Because 1) God has not shown me His love in deeds, but only in words, but magic doesn't care about loving me, they would do my request anyway, just because the ritual has been performed and the energy has been sent on its way 2) Prayers depend on the will of God, and you never know what's His will, in magic, you use your own energy, energy of stones and so on which starts to do things immediately without caring what God thinks of it. God can answer prayers with later because He sees that after that many years I would meet a better person to my wife than I would right now. Demons from the other hand are happy with what I offer to them in return and take and offer me the first match even if it's not the perfect one, because if they answer my request fast, I get back to them with a new "deal" fast. Magic doesn't waste its time so much on whether I believe or not or whether something better could come later or whether it's the will of God. It just does what is asked and that's it. To prove that, there are enough stories where teenagers try to summon a demon in a party, without any firm belief in these things and just do the ritual for fun to see what happens, and then the demon appears.
It's like taking over Jericho - people could either wait for 7 days till God destroys it or if people at that time knew how to make a nuclear bomb they could have carried a nuclear bomb to city gates on the first day, and destroyed it independently from God's plan.

 

[Newbie]

But with this you justify him letting me sit in this situation without even telling me why and how long more I have to sit like that.

All I can say is that God is love, and God only has our best interests at heart. This I know for a fact. Why are you in your present situation? This I cannot tell you, only God can tell you that. I am not God. I can theorize, but of what use would that be? Only God can give you a definite answer. Once again, all I can tell you is that you are important and valuable to Him, even if you do not believe it. You are unique, priceless and precious to God. I know this because the Bible says so, and the Bible is the word of God. God has not forgotten you my friend, have faith, God has never failed and will never fail. Trust in Him, He will not let you down.

And that's the whole issue: in my self I don't have strength to believe anymore because I have received so many disappointments already. But since I don't have that strength or ability in myself anymore, He won't answer my prayers to receive it either. So there is no way out. Whether it's my fault or not, it doesn't matter, in either case there is no way out.

Pray to God for strength, pray to God for His divine intervention. Place your faith wholly in Him, and He will not disappoint you. If however you pray to God and pray to Satan, how can you expect an answer? You cannot serve both God and Satan. They are complete opposites. You need to place your faith, or your hope of faith, in God. If you don't have faith, pray to God for faith, and read and study His word. His word is His bond, my friend, God has bound Himself by His word. His promises are real, His power endless. Trust in Him.

And that's the whole issue. I have already seen so many disappointments that I don't have strength to believe anymore. I wish I could but I can't. And without believing God won't help me. You have to stop blaming me for things which I am not able to change on my own. The whole point is that you have to understand that I am at the point where there is no way out. I am not God, therefore I don't have infinite faith. I am human, and my abilities are limited. I am not all-powerful. I cannot change my situation just by thinking/wishing it to change. I don't have that power that when I think of something it would happen like it is with God. You have to understand that right now coming out of my situation requires more faith than I have at the moment. But because of me not being able to believe enough, God would not give me that faith either. So you have to understand that there is no way out, and stop putting on my shoulders yoke that I am not able to carry.

Yes, you are not God. Yes, your faith is not infinite. But guess what? I am not God, and my faith isn't infinite either. When my faith wavers, when I begin to doubt, I simply look back on all the times that God has proven Himself and His love for mankind throughout history. I look at the persecuted Christians, and I realize that my problems and issues are not that big after all. They face death and worse daily for Christ's sake, and their faith remains stronger than ever. My problems seem insignificant compared to theirs. If they can endure, if they can persevere, if they can keep the faith, then so can I.

I understand that overcoming your situation requires more faith than you have right now. Read God's word, study His word, claim His promises, praise Him for His goodness. My friend, God will never give us a burden that we cannot carry. God will never ask of us that which we cannot do. He will never give us more than we can endure. You don't need to be all-powerful, God is all-powerful, and He is willing and able to help you.

You admitted yourself that it's not always easy to trust and have faith. You said that in this case I need to pray to be able to hold faith. Now if the prayer to have faith or to be able to hold faith is answered with no, then how am I supposed to hold it with my own strength? If I as a human have a limited amount of faith, and I start to run out of it and God is not giving me additional faith to be able to survive that, what am I supposed to do. You don't seem to have the ability to understand my situation.

Yes, it is not always easy to have faith, it is not always easy to believe, it is not always easy to trust. But if you pray to God for faith, and are unwilling to do what He has asked (e.g., read and study God's word), then how can He answer your request? I know of no other way to have faith.

I understand what it means to doubt, I understand what it means to have a lack of faith. But that is when we must trust, that is when we must cast all our cares and worries, our doubts and unbelief, on Him. We need to say, "Lord, I have no faith and I am having trouble believing. Nevertheless, not my will, but Yours be done. No matter what happens, Lord, I leave it all in Your hands." Leave it all in His hands, leave it all up to Him. He is more than capable of taking care of our problems.

Yes, the Bible too. But my point was that at best I can only read about His love. Whether it's people on this site or the Bible, it doesn't make the difference. The fact is that from the Bible or posts here I can only read about the love. I cannot receive the love. I cannot see the deeds done by God to me in love. If God really loves me then why doesn't His deeds show that? Why only the Bible tells about it but His deeds not showing that?

My friend, Job felt the same as you. "Behold, I go forward, but he is not there; and backward, but I cannot perceive him: On the left hand, where he doth work, but I cannot behold him: he hideth himself on the right hand, that I cannot see him:" (Job 23:8-9) Things got so bad for Job that his own wife said to him, "Dost thou still retain thine integrity? curse God, and die." (Job 2:9) But despite all that happened to him, he still trusted in God. He said, "Though he slay me, yet will I trust in him:" (Job 13:15) And look what happened to him. "The LORD blessed the latter part of Job's life more than the former part." (Job 42:12) God blessed him and rewarded him for his faith. Was it easy? No. But he trusted despite everything that happened and God rewarded him for it. So trust in God, my friend, and He will reward you.

Because 1) God has not shown me His love in deeds, but only in words, but magic doesn't care about loving me, they would do my request anyway, just because the ritual has been performed and the energy has been sent on its way 2) Prayers depend on the will of God, and you never know what's His will, in magic, you use your own energy, energy of stones and so on which starts to do things immediately without caring what God thinks of it. God can answer prayers with later because He sees that after that many years I would meet a better person to my wife than I would right now. Demons from the other hand are happy with what I offer to them in return and take and offer me the first match even if it's not a perfect one, because if they answer my request fast, I get back to them with a new "deal" fast. Magic doesn't waste its time so much on whether I believe or not or whether something better could come later or whether it's the will of God. It just does what is asked and that's it. To prove that, there are enough stories where teenagers try to summon a demon in a party, without any firm belief in these things and just do the ritual for fun to see what happens, and then the demon appears. It's like taking over Jericho - people could either wait for 7 days till God destroys it or if people at that time knew how to make a nuclear bomb they could have carried a nuclear bomb to the city, and destroyed it independently from God's plan.

All power comes from God. God is the source of all power. Satan has no power except what God allows him. (Luke 4:6) That is what Satan forgot in his pride, that all his power came from God, and that without God he had no power. Prayer depends upon the will of God. When we pray we surrender our free will to God, we ask God that His will, not ours, be done. But when God answers our prayers in a way that we were not expecting, He does it because He loves us and only wants the very best for us.

I am praying for you, my friend. GBY!

 

[Anonymous]

This I know for a fact.

But how do you know that? Ok you say you believe it by faith but why? Why do you think that God exists? What if people who wrote the Bible were broken and mistreated by their enemies in battles and then they just wished that there were God and then someone wrote those good wishes down instead? How do you know that God is real and not just a good wish of those who wrote the Bible? You know those who live in difficulties wish there were an all-powerful God who were able to do everything with one thought? Or people who were mistreated might have wished that there was someone who would overpower their enemies and payback for the wrong that was done. And such people could have invented God in their fantasies to get relief for their mental sufferings. They could have written about the holiness and justice of God so that they could at least mentally terrorize their enemies. Or because writing it allowed them to see enemies destroyed at least in their fantasies? How can you be sure that God really exists? How can you be sure that your faith is not vain?

Why are you in your present situation?

Maybe because atheists are right and there is no God actually who would hear me? If there were God - even if I did something wrong - by now He would have done at least something out of compassion. What if your faith is actually that you only think and believe and wish there is God but actually everything is just the world around us and no souls, no spirits, no angels, and no God?

Once again, all I can tell you is that you are important and valuable to Him, even if you do not believe it.

But why? What if there is no God. What if people who didn't have any friends or anyone who would love them just dreamed that there were God to whom they would be important? It's kinda uplifting to feel that you matter to someone. And the more powerful that someone is, the more uplifting it is to feel that He cares about you. And so someone who was kinda a social outcast might have dreamed that there were God who cared about him and then such person could have written it down. Maybe fantasizing and writing such fantasies down helped that person to feel loved and cared. And that is why God was invented. What if there is no God actually? How do you know that God is real? Maybe you only believe and think it is so? Maybe it's because you have been Christian for so long that you don't wish to change your life and lifestyle and that's why you keep telling that God is real? How do you know that God is not invented the way I described above and then added to the Bible? The Bible may be correct about historical events and people who came up with the idea of God the way I described above may have abused the historical correctness of the Bible to promote their dreams and wishes of God. Because if it's historically correct then it would be a good way to promote their dream of God because if the rest of the Bible is correct then it's easy to believe that things about God must also be right. But the reality might be that they just exploited the trustworthy history book to make their wish look trustworthy also. It's kinda like making a scam site and then trying to have trustworthy sites link to you so that your scam site would seem legit.

God has never failed and will never fail

But He has already.

He will not let you down.

But how do you explain me feeling down? Is it not letting down? How do you explain everything going bad in my life? Is it not letting me down? He may have something better in store for me, but that would happen sometime later. Just because He is going to lift me up somewhere in the future doesn't mean that He hasn't let me down. He could very well let me down now and then lift up in the future. But in that case, I would be let down in the meantime.

Pray to God for strength, pray to God for His divine intervention. Place your faith wholly in Him, and He will not disappoint you.

I have done this over and over again. I feel disappointment. How can you say He will not disappoint me if I am disappointed right now?

His promises are real, His power endless. Trust in Him.

I want to see this.

They face death and worse daily for Christ's sake, and their faith remains stronger than ever.

But what if they only think there is God and fear of Hell causes them to allow themselves to be killed and tortured? How do you know the faith isn't just a delusion?

Read God's word, study His word, claim His promises, praise Him for His goodness.

But these are full of desperate lies. Mixed with truthful history to make the whole fraud look true.

My friend, God will never give us a burden that we cannot carry.

But how do you explain this test to my faith? You see clearly that I already failed to carry this burden. Don't you?

God will never ask of us that which we cannot do.

But He asks me to believe in my current situation, but I clearly cannot do it right now as you yourself see.

He will never give us more than we can endure.

But how can I be there where I am right now? Isn't that giving more than we can endure?

and He is willing and able to help you.

So where is that help?
You see you are telling me lies. You tell me that God won't do this and that and God won't let happen this and that to me. But all these things have already happened to me. That's why I don't believe. Because you promise me that God won't let something happen but that something has very clearly happened to me. And it's not about having faith. These promises I quoted above don't add a requirement "if you have faith". God does not say that He only keeps us from having more than we can endure if we have faith to believe that. You see you are talking to me about promises that have actually just failed in my life. That have proven to be false. And if they come true at some point later in my life, it does not mean that these promises have not failed me now. Right now, these promises have failed. Full stop.

But that is when we must trust, that is when we must cast all our cares and worries, our doubts and unbelief, on Him.

But I can't trust someone who has so far only failed me.

"Lord, I have no faith and I am having trouble believing. Nevertheless, not my will, but Yours be done. No matter what happens, Lord, I leave it all in Your hands." Leave it all in His hands, leave it all up to Him. He is more than capable of taking care of our problems.

I have done this many times. No help.

God blessed him and rewarded him for his faith. Was it easy? No. But he trusted despite everything that happened and God rewarded him for it. So trust in God, my friend, and He will reward you.

It's just one success story. The Bible says nowhere that it is going to happen to all who go through such a thing. There is no such guarantee, so no reason to hope in that. The story doesn't end with words "If you endure, God is going to reward you also." It's just because God liked Job. Or, in case God really exists, He wished to promote Himself. It's kinda like when you know that newspapers will write about you and then you try to look as good as possible. It has happened when business men or companies treat someone like crap for years and then that someone complains about it in a newspaper and they compensate everything. Or when people like politicians or business men do charity because they know that the eye of media is on them and then they want to look good. The same is with God. The only reason He blessed Job was that He knew that this story was going to be written in the Bible. And if He would have let Job die like that, then that story in the Bible would do much harm to His reputation. And then He only blessed Job because this story was going to make it to the Bible and He cared about His own reputation not so much about Job itself. I think you have heard about United Airlines pulling forcefully a passenger out of a plane. It was filmed by other passengers and it became a huge scandal. At the end, they changed their rules and paid huge compensation to that passenger. If these videos didn't go viral and the media wouldn't have started writing about it, they would not even have apologized to that mistreated passenger. But because now they were in the media and everyone was writing about it, they paid even compensation to earn back their reputation that was lost. And I think the same thing is with God. With Job, the Bible writers were writing about it and it went viral. And then God had to bless Job to save His reputation that was lost. But if I would die in my current situation, then no one would be writing about it. Or if someone would, it would not be read by as many people as the Bible would be read. So God does not need to bless me because my dying in my current situation would not cause harm to His reputation. And since I am not a threat to His reputation, He doesn't care. I could expect to be blessed if today new chapters were added to the Bible because then there would be an actual threat that if my story is written to the Bible and God does not compensate me, then His reputation would fall. But since today no stories are written in the Bible anymore, God does not have to worry about it. And since He does not have to worry about His image, He won't care. Maybe if I would start writing a blog about my life and it had a few million readers, then God might compensate my sufferings with blessings, but it would be because millions are reading about my life and not because He would like to bless me. But since my story hasn't gone viral on the internet, God wouldn't care to bless me because right now only one except you would read about it and since it's not in the middle of attention, God can just let me go silently and cover it all afterwards so that the world won't be talking about it or discussing it.