I have been on this path, three months ago, that even as I am chopping onions to cook, tears would just be rolling down my face, I would be sobbing and crying, this led on for days, that I got my parents and my sister worried.
One day after learning about this site, asking for prayers and praying for others, a light lit upon me. I realized the probable reasons why it happened, bad and good, I said sorry to the Lord, and cast my fears, laid my cards and lifted my hands and asked for guidance for him. I then knew that I don't need to just plan for me, I can plan for others.
I then realized the power of paying it forward, or thinking for others, I am presently happy. I still have not yet started on my plans because I'm waiting for time, but I know that by God's grace I can and I WILL.
I pray for you my friend, I pray that you have the same thing that happened to me. I pray that you become happy, and that you realize that each morning is a reason to be happy.
Lord God, we lift this person to You in prayer.
In Jesus name,
Amen