Anonymous
Beloved of All
I am at the end of it all. If things do not change, if my marriage, my self, my husband does not change, I have no option but to seek divorce. That is how I feel. My husband has had a lust problem as long as I knew him. I knew he had it when I met him. My, what I thought was love, overpowered it. I thought he would see how wonderful I am and change. Instead it has not. About ### years into the marriage, he began to see he was wrong. But he still takes every opportunity to blame it on the woman, the world, me, other men. Never has he taken full responsibility. His ways have left me feeling inadequate, ugly, unappealing, jealous, angry, covetous of other women's looks, etc. I know I am wrong. I am so hurt, so damaged, I do not know how to overcome. We have gone to marital counseling. It did not help. We are still where we were. If I don't bring it up and tell him how I feel, he would never and just act as though everything is okay. He never deals with anything that is difficult. His natural bent is to be a coward. So he gets off the hook and I suffer every day. I cannot even get dressed without questioning everything I wear, etc. I hate it. I am in bondage. And he is in denial that he does what he does. He vaguely says he is wrong, but does it again and again. I just don't know what to do.
