Brittney95
Humble Prayer Partner
Hello, I pray here often and even more so when my Ex Boyfriend ### and I started having problems. We are still not speaking, but I pray to God that he will Reach out soon and I can get the closure that I not only need, want, but deserve as well. The way we ended was not the right way I feel. I wish we didn't end at all, but unfortunately it takes two to build a relationship and to keep it going, but he decided to leave again and so here we are. I miss him everyday and I can barely find a moment where he is not weighing on my mind heavily. There was a third party involved. Her name is ### ### and she claims she knew about me. Which makes it even worse on her part. I didn't know about her, but because of my history with this man I figured that he was seeing someone. We did agree to be in an open relationship at the time, but he lied to me about another woman even then and I didn't get that. Well, this woman is like 15 years older than both ### and I. ### and I were born in the same year. So, anyway, I guess he had several conversations about me with her behind my back and he had her thinking all kinds of things about me. She even allowed him to come to my house to use me for money. At least that's what he had her thinking. He did get money from me that day, but that's not all that occurred and I let her know that, but she was already convinced that I was the crazy stalker ex girlfriend and that wasn't the case at all. ### and I have had separations before in the past, but they have only been temporary. I don't think that either of them are in the relationship for the right reasons and this girl claimed to be a woman of God, but her actions proved otherwise. She actually judged me for not having a job, still living in my parents house ( which I now have my own apartment) telling me not to have sex before marriage and quoting all sorts of things from the Bible, but apparently forgetting about what she's doing. Being hypocritical if you will. I don't even know her, but she came at me like she knew me and she doesn't. This was about 11/12 months ago, but I am having a hard time getting over this situation and ###. What a ### year old woman wants with a ### year old, I don't know. Maybe it's to feel young, maybe she felt like she was running out of time to find someone I don't know, but no matter which way you put it , it doesn't sound right. She did leave him shortly after all of this, but later on down the line they got back together which I found out from a friend and I didn't even ask about him. I will always love that boy with all my heart even if we are completely over this time and I do forgive him for his actions and I do hope we can at least reconcile our friendship if nothing else and at least leave things on a better note because the way we left them even after all this times eats me alive every single day. I'd also like to pray that ### stop messing around and starting relationships with men that are taken and that she find some self- respect. I also pray that whatever ### feels like I have done that he forgives me and that I can forgive him too. I pray that if he he has any hate towards me that it be removed as I have been nothing, but good to him. Lord, please soften up his heart. Even if we aren't meant to be romantically, I pray that it is your will for us to be at peace and be friends like we were once before. Also, he has been able to talk to my friend and my brother in law and it hurts that he just won't speak to me and I didn't even do anything to him. I feel he wants to talk, but he is being stubborn, holding onto his pride and trying to prove some kind of point. I pray over this in Jesus's name, AMEN! Thanks, ###.
Praying this has made me feel somewhat at peace. I just need for someone to pray in agreement with me. Somethings you just can't let go regardless of the timing or situation. I know I can once I receive closure... positive closure from ###. This is not to reconcile romantically. Just our friendship as we were friends before we were ever anything else. Notes of encouragement are welcome and appreciated, but please be positive.
Praying this has made me feel somewhat at peace. I just need for someone to pray in agreement with me. Somethings you just can't let go regardless of the timing or situation. I know I can once I receive closure... positive closure from ###. This is not to reconcile romantically. Just our friendship as we were friends before we were ever anything else. Notes of encouragement are welcome and appreciated, but please be positive.
