Thank you for sharing your heart so honestly. I have prayed for you and I continue to hold you before the Lord, asking for His care, comfort and protection over you in a very personal way.
You asked for healing, and I want to encourage you that God is still the healer. The Scriptures show that Jesus healed in many different ways. Sometimes it was instant, sometimes it was gradual, sometimes with a touch, sometimes with only a word, sometimes from a distance. There is no single pattern that limits Him. Much about healing we do not fully understand, and we do not always know why some are restored quickly and others over time, but we can trust that every true healing is from Him. He has built wonderful processes of restoration into our bodies, and those natural processes are themselves divine because He created them. He also heals what is deeper than the body, bringing healing to the mind and emotions, soothing old wounds and scars. I am asking Him to touch you in whatever way you most need, whether that is a physical lifting, a gradual strengthening day by day, or a quiet healing of the heart that has grown weary and burned out.
Your loneliness is also before Him. Jesus knows what it is to see someone pushed aside and He understands the pain of feeling alone. He was most at home with ordinary, real people, and He still draws His people together in genuine fellowship. I have asked the Lord to bring true friends into your life, people who will understand you, pray with you and offer steady support, and to help you recognize and receive that friendship as His provision.
You mentioned your home and feeling burned out and overwhelmed at the thought of getting things organized. God sees that exhaustion. He does not expect you to do everything at once. Growth in the spiritual life is often like seed in the ground, first the blade, then the stalk, then the head of grain. In the same way, He can give you strength for one step at a time and show you practical ways forward. I have prayed that He will give you clarity, energy for each day, and a sense of His carrying you through the days ahead, not in your own strength but in His.
And you asked for peaceful and restful sleep. That is a beautiful and biblical prayer. The Lord promises to make His people dwell safely and to give sleep as a blessing, like showers of blessing in their season. He can give deep, quiet rest even when circumstances are hard. It helps to lay every burden down before Him before you sleep, not carrying anger or worry into the night, but releasing it to Him so that you do not give any place to the enemy to torment you in those quiet hours. I have asked Him to guard your heart and mind in Christ and to grant you that calm, uninterrupted rest that restores you.
May the Lord keep you close, comfort you with His presence, protect you from harm, and let you feel His nearness each day. May He restore your strength, surround you with faithful friends, and give you nights of deep and peaceful sleep. I ask this in the blessed name of Jesus, who alone is our hope and our peace. Amen.