Your burden has been heard and we join you in bringing it before the Lord who hears the cry of those who seek Him.
We thank God that He has opened your eyes to see both the danger of the path you once walked in the new age and the precious truth that there is forgiveness with Him. The Scripture declares, I, even I, am He that blotteth out thy transgressions, and again, There is forgiveness with Thee. This is a divine forgiveness, not from man but from God Himself, surprising in its freeness, complete in its extent, and eternal through the blood of Jesus Christ. If you tremble under the memory of sin and desire forgiveness with a penitent heart, hear this assurance, there is forgiveness, and it is to be obtained from God alone through Jesus Christ His Son, the Just who died for the unjust that He might bring us to God. He has found a ransom, and therefore deliverance from the pit is certain, not because of anything in us, but because His Son has borne the penalty.
You speak of harassment and of the oppression that followed that former way of life, and of the struggle with unforgiveness. The Word does indeed teach us that as God for Christ's sake hath forgiven us, so we are to forgive one another. It is as it were a joint business of mutual forgiveness among the people of God, and for those who have received so much forgiveness, to forgive should become as natural as to open our hands. To cherish unforgiveness is to give place to the enemy and to remain in bondage, and the Lord would have His children walk in the freedom of a forgiving spirit.
Yet we would have you see clearly where your deliverance lies. Deliverance from sin and from the power of darkness is solely by the power of God. It is not of him that willeth, nor of him that runneth, but of God that sheweth mercy. He brought them forth, and He alone brings forth His people now. Your peace with God does not depend upon whether those who have harassed you choose to forgive you or to receive your peace, though you ought to desire it. If you have the forgiveness of God through Christ, though all men should hiss at you and withhold their forgiveness, you may still enter heaven. So do not think that your standing before God or your deliverance from demonic harassment rests upon perfectly achieving reconciliation with others. Christ is your ransom and your deliverance.
At the same time, the Scripture says, If it be possible, as much as lieth in you, live peaceably with all men. Where you have done harm, it is right to seek to make peace, and where others have harmed you, it is right to release them from your heart before God. This is often not easy or simple, as you have found, and it is nerve wracking when harmful things have been done on both sides. We counsel you to pursue this not alone and not without wisdom. Seek the counsel and presence of a faithful pastor and mature believers in your local church who know you and can help you discern what is wise, what is safe, and what is possible. Forgiveness in the heart before God can be immediate and complete, but reconciliation with others depends also upon them, and some who are yet unsaved or deceived by false teaching may not respond as you hope, and may still behave in an out of the ordinary way. To forgive does not always mean to return to close fellowship or to place yourself again under harm. Love seeks peace, but love also walks in wisdom and truth.
Do not let the enemy whisper that because your heart has not yet felt perfect peace, or because others have not yet responded, that there is no forgiveness for you or no deliverance for you. There is forgiveness now, at this moment, whatever your past has been. And there is deliverance, for God has not only invented the way but has provided the ransom in His Son.
We pray for you now.
O Lord our God, with whom there is forgiveness, we thank Thee that Thou hast shown this soul the evil of the old path and hast led toward the light of Christ. Grant a deeper assurance of complete and eternal forgiveness through the blood of Jesus, and let that whisper drive away despair. Give deliverance from every oppression of the enemy, for Thou alone bringest forth Thy people with power. Create in this heart a continual spirit of forgiveness, even as Thou for Christ's sake hast forgiven, and heal the wounds left by harmful words and deeds. Grant wisdom and courage and godly counsel in every attempt to make peace, and guard from further harm. Let not the outcome rest upon the response of others, but upon Thy faithful promise. Protect from harassment, quiet the troubled mind, and establish this life upon Christ the sure foundation. And we ask also for those who have caused harm, that Thou wouldst save those who are yet unsaved and lead those deceived into the truth of Thy Word, that they may know the same forgiveness. Keep this dear one abiding in Thy Word, in prayer, and in the fellowship of Thy people, looking to Jesus alone for deliverance and enrichment. In the name of Jesus Christ our only hope we ask it. Amen.
Continue to walk in the light, to confess sin quickly, to forgive as you have been forgiven, and to trust not in your own efforts to secure peace with others but in the finished work of Christ who is your peace. Keep close to the means of grace and to the shepherds Christ has given His church, and may the Lord give you songs of deliverance as He keeps you in His peace within your borders.