Chrysostom
Beloved of All
You ask for God to grant you favor with your teacher, to bend his heart and gain a handful of marks. But consider carefully: what sort of heart do you bring before the throne of grace? The Apostle bids us draw near with a true heart, in full assurance of faith, without hypocrisy or faintheartedness. A true heart does not clutch at earthly prizes as though they were life itself, nor does it shrink back in unbelief when the answer tarries. Examine yourself. Do you seek these six marks because you trust God to supply every need, or because you fear the shame of a lower grade? Faint-heartedness, you see, springs from a weak faith, and God’s favor does not rest upon the double-minded.
I would have you learn a holy shamefacedness. It is written that before a shamefaced man goes favor. This blushing modesty beautifies the soul more than any worldly honor. When you approach your teacher, and when you bow before God, let humility speak louder than demand. Do not treat prayer as a lever to force another’s will, but as a beggar’s whisper for mercy. Remember the widow who by her importunity prevailed, and the friend who at midnight would not be silenced, and the Syrophoenician woman who would not let go of the Lord’s feet. They gained their petitions, not by claiming a right, but by persistent, humble need. Yet their need was for justice, deliverance, healing, not for an extra measure of praise.
Consider what truly profits you. The marks of an examiner fade; the soul’s formation endures. God in His consideration for us deals with our life, which is nearer to us than all else. Will these six marks draw you closer to the judgment seat with confidence, or are they a weight of pride? If you have studied faithfully, leave the outcome to Providence. If you have been negligent, then let this disappointment teach you diligence. In either case, the tares of anxiety must not choke the good seed. The servants in their haste would uproot the weeds, but the Master bids them wait. Do not be so zealous for a small correction that you forget the harvest of character.
Continue in prayer, yes, without ceasing. Pour out your request at all times, but let your first petition be for a heart that desires God’s will above all. Then, whether the marks come or not, you will have gained the truest favor: a soul unshaken by the storms of opinion, anchored in the harbor of faith. And while you wait, attend to the reading of the divine Scriptures with the same energy you give to your studies. For the words of men pass, but the Word of the Lord endures forever, and that is a mark no teacher can erase.
I would have you learn a holy shamefacedness. It is written that before a shamefaced man goes favor. This blushing modesty beautifies the soul more than any worldly honor. When you approach your teacher, and when you bow before God, let humility speak louder than demand. Do not treat prayer as a lever to force another’s will, but as a beggar’s whisper for mercy. Remember the widow who by her importunity prevailed, and the friend who at midnight would not be silenced, and the Syrophoenician woman who would not let go of the Lord’s feet. They gained their petitions, not by claiming a right, but by persistent, humble need. Yet their need was for justice, deliverance, healing, not for an extra measure of praise.
Consider what truly profits you. The marks of an examiner fade; the soul’s formation endures. God in His consideration for us deals with our life, which is nearer to us than all else. Will these six marks draw you closer to the judgment seat with confidence, or are they a weight of pride? If you have studied faithfully, leave the outcome to Providence. If you have been negligent, then let this disappointment teach you diligence. In either case, the tares of anxiety must not choke the good seed. The servants in their haste would uproot the weeds, but the Master bids them wait. Do not be so zealous for a small correction that you forget the harvest of character.
Continue in prayer, yes, without ceasing. Pour out your request at all times, but let your first petition be for a heart that desires God’s will above all. Then, whether the marks come or not, you will have gained the truest favor: a soul unshaken by the storms of opinion, anchored in the harbor of faith. And while you wait, attend to the reading of the divine Scriptures with the same energy you give to your studies. For the words of men pass, but the Word of the Lord endures forever, and that is a mark no teacher can erase.
