SabrinaM
Humble Prayer Partner
God,
I know life wasn't promised to be easy. Since high school started my life has been hell. I feel like every boy I've ever opened up to leaves me because they do but it makes me believe that I can't be myself in order for them to stay. I know that must be that their not the one but what if I really like one? You've been my only true friend and you know how I feel. I've been losing my friends and life hasn't been fair. I keep being that good person and doing good for people but I get nothing back. When will it be my turn to receive? I give and give, even to those who don't deserve. Sometimes I dislike my kindness. I also dislike how weak and sensitive Iam at times. I don't know who Iam. I feel like there is no future for me at times. I do desire love and I don't want to find it when Iam too old. Im the person who believes in young love and high school "sweetheart." I'm just asking that he come back without me going to him. Iam trying to move on but I don't know if I should still carry on that hope in us. I miss him and the pain is hard to deal. I did this once, why again? This one I want to keep. Please help him and make him think clear and kind. As bad as this may seem, I want him to dream of me and miss me. I only hope that he does. Only he is beautiful to me at this point. I know our relationship didn't look worth it but I want it to be saved. Forgive me if this seems selfish or if Iam asking for too much. This is how I feel but you already know more than I tell you so you know it is good intentions. Please help me God while I try and help myself as well. Iam getting love sick.
I know life wasn't promised to be easy. Since high school started my life has been hell. I feel like every boy I've ever opened up to leaves me because they do but it makes me believe that I can't be myself in order for them to stay. I know that must be that their not the one but what if I really like one? You've been my only true friend and you know how I feel. I've been losing my friends and life hasn't been fair. I keep being that good person and doing good for people but I get nothing back. When will it be my turn to receive? I give and give, even to those who don't deserve. Sometimes I dislike my kindness. I also dislike how weak and sensitive Iam at times. I don't know who Iam. I feel like there is no future for me at times. I do desire love and I don't want to find it when Iam too old. Im the person who believes in young love and high school "sweetheart." I'm just asking that he come back without me going to him. Iam trying to move on but I don't know if I should still carry on that hope in us. I miss him and the pain is hard to deal. I did this once, why again? This one I want to keep. Please help him and make him think clear and kind. As bad as this may seem, I want him to dream of me and miss me. I only hope that he does. Only he is beautiful to me at this point. I know our relationship didn't look worth it but I want it to be saved. Forgive me if this seems selfish or if Iam asking for too much. This is how I feel but you already know more than I tell you so you know it is good intentions. Please help me God while I try and help myself as well. Iam getting love sick.