SabrinaM
Humble Prayer Partner
God,
I know life wasn't promised to be easy. Since high school started my life has been hell. I feel like every boy I've ever opened up to leaves me because they do but it makes me believe that I can't be myself in order for them to stay. I know that must be that their not the one but what if I really like one? You've been my only true friend and you know how I feel. I've been losing my friends and life hasn't been fair. I keep being that good person and doing good for people but I get nothing back. When will it be my turn to receive? I give and give, even to those who don't deserve. Sometimes I dislike my kindness. I also dislike how weak and sensitive I am at times. I don't know who I am. I feel like there is no future for me at times. I do desire love and I don't want to find it when I am too old. I'm the person who believes in young love and high school "sweetheart." I'm just asking that he come back without me going to him. I am trying to move on but I don't know if I should still carry on that hope in us. I miss him and the pain is hard to deal. I did this once, why again? This one I want to keep. Please help him and make him think clear and kind. As bad as this may seem, I want him to dream of me and miss me. I only hope that he does. Only he is beautiful to me at this point. I know our relationship didn't look worth it but I want it to be saved. Forgive me if this seems selfish or if I am asking for too much. This is how I feel but you already know more than I tell you so you know it is good intentions. Please help me God while I try and help myself as well. I am getting love sick.
I know life wasn't promised to be easy. Since high school started my life has been hell. I feel like every boy I've ever opened up to leaves me because they do but it makes me believe that I can't be myself in order for them to stay. I know that must be that their not the one but what if I really like one? You've been my only true friend and you know how I feel. I've been losing my friends and life hasn't been fair. I keep being that good person and doing good for people but I get nothing back. When will it be my turn to receive? I give and give, even to those who don't deserve. Sometimes I dislike my kindness. I also dislike how weak and sensitive I am at times. I don't know who I am. I feel like there is no future for me at times. I do desire love and I don't want to find it when I am too old. I'm the person who believes in young love and high school "sweetheart." I'm just asking that he come back without me going to him. I am trying to move on but I don't know if I should still carry on that hope in us. I miss him and the pain is hard to deal. I did this once, why again? This one I want to keep. Please help him and make him think clear and kind. As bad as this may seem, I want him to dream of me and miss me. I only hope that he does. Only he is beautiful to me at this point. I know our relationship didn't look worth it but I want it to be saved. Forgive me if this seems selfish or if I am asking for too much. This is how I feel but you already know more than I tell you so you know it is good intentions. Please help me God while I try and help myself as well. I am getting love sick.
