Thalyoth
Disciple of Prayer
For the comeback of my friend. Once I tried my best to keep all my friendships, but everyone cheated me. When I was in Std 11, I took a decision that I don't want any friends, but I used to talk with everyone, but I don't have any best ones. All are equal only. I used to make them happy; they all are very good guys only. It's hard for me to leave someone after becoming so close. When I was studying, someone came into my life, and he is a good guy only. We started to talk, and the reason for our talk was that I was captain, and he was my vice-captain in that team. For that team's purpose, we started talking. After that, the school program ended, and everyone left before that. He tried to make a friendship between us. After some days, he used to visit my class to pick me from there and arrange all programs in our team. After sports and arts got over, that time also he visited my class, and we talked; he was close with my classmates. After all, he used to say, "Do you remember me when you reached your home?" "Did you remember me?" "Will you accept me as your friend?" and all. He always used to say like that only. "Will we become friends?" like that every interval time, he used to visit my class. If I don't look at him, he becomes so sad and depressed. If I won't talk, he'll be like that only. Then he started to put messages, text messages, but I won't reply that time. But I'm so happy, and the next day on the way to our home from school, we used to talk, but I won't reply any of his messages. After seeing his messages, I'm so happy only, so happy. The next day, he'll ask, "Why don't you put any replies?" I said simply. This repeated for many days. Then I started to reply him. He used to call me daily. After completing our schooling, I gave my WhatsApp number. It's my mom's only because he wanted some pics of our farewell. I said, "I'll send that," but I forgot that. Then he started WhatsApping; he used to chat early morning with warm morning wishes, then after 9 am, then afternoon, evening, and at night. It continued for a long time. He said, "If I won't talk, it feels like something. I can't afford that pain. If I don't talk at night, he can sleep, etc." I trust him so much, and I avoid everything and make him happy because he loves me a lot. After I saw his efforts, I tried my best to be close with him because he was so sensitive, and I am also in the same nature only. He makes me so close and makes me see him in a special way. After that, he left everything slowly: morning chats, then evening, and then at night also. Once he said, "He can't hold pains, can't sleep, etc." Now he stopped everything only. This time, I can't hold pains, then he came for my satisfaction only. One time, he'll come, and while I'm talking, he says bye and he went out. I prayed for this whole day and night, but God didn't answer. I skipped my studies, food, exams, etc., but he is enjoying his life. Only I am just having heartbreaks. Oh, God is allowing these kinds of man in our life. They'll make us feel special in their life, and he'll leave and be so serious in keeping every relationship. Even my parents asked me, "Will he sacrifice as you did for keeping his bond?" I know well that he won't. But...
After completing all this work, then only he'll come. In the past, he was not like this. And I didn't expect this much change from him. Now I'm in this pain. I'm suffering from this for 6, 7 months. I begged him just to become like the past because I can't hold these all changes. If I said something, he won't hear. He'll say reasons, excuses, but I obeyed and respected all these feelings, that's why others hurt me so much. Due to this problem, I can't concentrate on my studies, spiritual works, even my own things also, and he is just doing everything. That much I lost myself. If he is sad, I'll make him so happy without any delay. I don't allow him to go in a sad mood. I took my time and made him so relaxed and made him so happy. And he gave me all tearful nights and heartbreak days. I cry whole day and night... without any fail, but God didn't give me peace. I just enjoyed my life with my church, family, and with my cousins only. He only came; I didn't go and requested him to make me as his friend. But he did that, and he left. I saw many changes in him. That time, I used to say... But he won't accept. I said, "If you can't be like the past, then I'll leave." He said nothing like that. "If I leave, then he'll say, 'I can't live without you. You're more to me. And make many bonds also. We'll be friends till over death or the second coming of Jesus or till the world ends.'" But he left me, and he went. If I put a message also, he won't reply. Sometimes, he'll put an emoji as replies. Once, he used to say, "Put replies," and now... Once, he took the mobile in our to check my message or to put a message for me, but now, he said many sweet words. Actually, I used to comfort him with Bible words only. Whatever comes, "I'll do like that only." Now I lost everything. Once I was good one for him, now I'm the worst one, stress-giver. Actually, I put more efforts and time to make him happy and with him, but at last, I got this..... Now I lost everything, everything. I can't hold all pains. He only came and took everything and he went. Now I lost all contact with him. He blocked me in everything; he won't attend any calls nor reply also. Actually, he is a nice guy. Even you also did a mistake. I do fight with him to be like the past because that he is entirely different from nowadays. I miss him badly. Please pray for me... Please pray that don't take him away from me. He only made me promise that don't leave. Now he left me. I want my old friend back ... I really can't leave him. He is also a God-fearing man. So, I love to be with him. What shall I do? I prayed every night and day with tears, but God didn't give me any answers. It's hard for me to leave because I trusted him blindly. I just miss my happy me. I don't know what to pray also. Will I pray for him to come back and be like the past, or will I pray to leave him? But I don't know God's decision. But I want my friend back... I went with my earnest request to him, but for him, his own things. Can you pray for me? He is also a God-fearing man. That's why I don't want him to leave. From my side also, there is a lot of mistakes. Whenever I tried to leave because I know one day he may leave me, that time he held me close; he didn't want to leave. Today, his aunt said, "Don't try to contact him, and he also won't do." I'm so, so after hearing that, and I said that aunt that I can't leave him. His name is ###. One day, he said to me, "Stay close to God" and stay close to ### also. Those words still... Can you pray for me? Become I can't hold this. I really can't. Can you please pray for that aunt and his family? His family is the main thing for our separation, but they're blaming me. Like Jacob, he fought with the angel, know... like wise, I am also praying for this, but I can't hold this alone. So, I requested your sincere prayer. I want to hear a miracle Please, I want him back.
After completing all this work, then only he'll come. In the past, he was not like this. And I didn't expect this much change from him. Now I'm in this pain. I'm suffering from this for 6, 7 months. I begged him just to become like the past because I can't hold these all changes. If I said something, he won't hear. He'll say reasons, excuses, but I obeyed and respected all these feelings, that's why others hurt me so much. Due to this problem, I can't concentrate on my studies, spiritual works, even my own things also, and he is just doing everything. That much I lost myself. If he is sad, I'll make him so happy without any delay. I don't allow him to go in a sad mood. I took my time and made him so relaxed and made him so happy. And he gave me all tearful nights and heartbreak days. I cry whole day and night... without any fail, but God didn't give me peace. I just enjoyed my life with my church, family, and with my cousins only. He only came; I didn't go and requested him to make me as his friend. But he did that, and he left. I saw many changes in him. That time, I used to say... But he won't accept. I said, "If you can't be like the past, then I'll leave." He said nothing like that. "If I leave, then he'll say, 'I can't live without you. You're more to me. And make many bonds also. We'll be friends till over death or the second coming of Jesus or till the world ends.'" But he left me, and he went. If I put a message also, he won't reply. Sometimes, he'll put an emoji as replies. Once, he used to say, "Put replies," and now... Once, he took the mobile in our to check my message or to put a message for me, but now, he said many sweet words. Actually, I used to comfort him with Bible words only. Whatever comes, "I'll do like that only." Now I lost everything. Once I was good one for him, now I'm the worst one, stress-giver. Actually, I put more efforts and time to make him happy and with him, but at last, I got this..... Now I lost everything, everything. I can't hold all pains. He only came and took everything and he went. Now I lost all contact with him. He blocked me in everything; he won't attend any calls nor reply also. Actually, he is a nice guy. Even you also did a mistake. I do fight with him to be like the past because that he is entirely different from nowadays. I miss him badly. Please pray for me... Please pray that don't take him away from me. He only made me promise that don't leave. Now he left me. I want my old friend back ... I really can't leave him. He is also a God-fearing man. So, I love to be with him. What shall I do? I prayed every night and day with tears, but God didn't give me any answers. It's hard for me to leave because I trusted him blindly. I just miss my happy me. I don't know what to pray also. Will I pray for him to come back and be like the past, or will I pray to leave him? But I don't know God's decision. But I want my friend back... I went with my earnest request to him, but for him, his own things. Can you pray for me? He is also a God-fearing man. That's why I don't want him to leave. From my side also, there is a lot of mistakes. Whenever I tried to leave because I know one day he may leave me, that time he held me close; he didn't want to leave. Today, his aunt said, "Don't try to contact him, and he also won't do." I'm so, so after hearing that, and I said that aunt that I can't leave him. His name is ###. One day, he said to me, "Stay close to God" and stay close to ### also. Those words still... Can you pray for me? Become I can't hold this. I really can't. Can you please pray for that aunt and his family? His family is the main thing for our separation, but they're blaming me. Like Jacob, he fought with the angel, know... like wise, I am also praying for this, but I can't hold this alone. So, I requested your sincere prayer. I want to hear a miracle Please, I want him back.
